endless.. a silent whisper

17 days to go. :)

2008-03-26T11:45:00.004Z

unexpected, what you did to my heart.
..at the beginning.:)

awww, memries. :')

so today was not that bad, but yesterday is still better. :(

i went to school yesterday to watch the recognition. and there i saw my most loved people.:)

first i went to may tropa, then bonded with my twinn. <3

err, i'm so twisted to post right now. i feel like there's much to say but i can't say it here. i really admire those people who are unafraid to show their heart out to the whole wide web. haay. just wish i could do the same. sadly, i'll be affecting people. which i don't like to happen, since *#)% (^ *&)$(@ *$ ) % #*%%-*#&$^$%#@ person again. haha! censored stuff. :)) so there, i've been dealing with people whom i don't really like lately. and i don't know how to interact with them. funny, i look stupid everytime they strike a conversation with me for i don't really know what to say. :)) :)) it would be a lot easier if we could just say "hey i don't like talking to you, so don't talk to me." :)) but then, that would be mean again. so i'm taking back what i said. :) awwwwww. poor post, so random and unorganized. >:)

your love is the greatest gift i'd like to have on my birthday.15

hell of a start, :)

2008-03-25T01:00:00.002Z

goodbye, SY o7-o8. :)

aww, wala na TC. pero i'm not here to post about that. :)) :))

first of summer. :D

so yun, after nung last exams umalis na kami papuntang bora. yung travel ng barko, 8 hours. first time ko sumakay ng barko. :)) pagkagising ko, nasa romblon na kami. papalipas kami ng good friday dun. :D tas yun, dinalaw namin mga lola ko. :)) kakatawa pala sa province, halos lahat ng makakasalubong mo kamag anak mo pala. kahit mayor! =)) tas natulog kami sa hotel na may pool. ang sarap ng calamansi juice dun! tamang tama ang timpla. :)) tas good friday, nagcheck out kami sa hotel para kela lola matulog. kakatakot yung bahay na yun, ang laki laki kasi. biruin niyo, 20 kami tas nagkasya kaming lahat dun. tas ang daming nakahang na old pics ng mga ninuno namin. kaya scary talaga! tas ang aga namin gumising para magspeedboat to bora. ayun, nakakahilo. :)) kaya kumanta nalang kami ng kumanta ng mga pinsan ko, to ease the boredom. :)) then yun, nakarating kami sa bora. naglunch kami ng sisig. then nagpalit na kami ng summer gear namin. naglalakadlakad para makakita ng artista. tas nakita namin si phoemela barranda, roxanne(tanduay:)), bianca king at victor basa. then nag ice monster ako. :)) memries. :P tapos natulog, kasi nalaman ko na maraming banda sa gabi. then ginising ako para magbanana boat. ang corney. mas astig parin sa puerto. tas nagflying fish kami! habang nagfflying fish kami kumakanta kami ng bitiw kasi andun yung little cousin ko, tas wala talagang bitawan! :)) then yun. nagswim swim ng onti. bumili ng shake. tas nakita namin si gab ng parokya at si jamila ng pbb. tas nagpic pic sa sunset. tas nanood kina ravier at maja. nagsayaw silang low. :)) :)) tas umuwi para maligo. then nagdinner sa dmall. tas nagbar hopping. :)) tas nanood na ng mga banda. after ng kazee, nagbar hopping ulit with cousins. :)) ayun lang naman ata. :)) text niyo nalang ako for further details. =))=))

all that i want to do is to hold you forever, forever and ever.

redundancy.

2008-03-15T01:58:00.004Z

tell myself i'd stop everyday.
..knowing that i won't.

Redundancy. according to white chowci, ito ang noun form ng redundant, which means paulitulit. sometimes, redundancy can be bad. boring, nakakasawa.

annoying na din kung minsan. gaya ng paulit ulit na sermon ng nanay, sigaw ng tatay, away sa classroom. mga bading na nakakairita ang ugali. parang ****. badtrip to, lalo na pag may pms ka tas parang gusto mong sapakin lahat ng taong makakasalamuha mo. yung tipong, sinabi mo na ngang later na, ang kulit kulit padin. i know that i can be an example of a reduntant person. pero sorry naman. haha! kakairita din yung ibang kanta, SOBRANG PAULITULIT yung lyrics. taena. ang sarap sumigaw ng 'i get the point dude!' kaya lang maooffend yung writer. naghirap naman sila dun kahit papano diba? kahit REDUNDANT.

. .sometimes, redundancy can be gooood.

lalo na pag ang sarap pakinggan ng paulit ulit. like 'i love you' ng taong mahal mo, 'hindi kita ipagpapalit' ng bestfriend mo, mga compliments na kahit paulitulit ay alam mo na hinding hindi ka magsasawa. redundancy is also good kung makakatulong siya sayo. like paulitulit na pakikinig sa mga kantang nakakarelax at magpapagaan ng loob mo.

tsss. wala lang, ang boring ng post ko. REDUNDANT kasi. :)) :))

bear with me guys, tutal. 3 days nalang naman ipapasok natin.

ok? connection?

and i'd give up forever to touch you.

the sun won't shine since you ran away.

2008-03-10T10:11:00.002Z

another night where i made my way through.
who's up for a sentimental post?

i know that i can never be that girl for you.

i haven't posted for quite a while. it was a fine day, but i always feel gloomy whenever i hear this song. it's called until i get over you - christina millan. i dunno why. it's not that i can relate to it, but it seems like everytime i hear it, i get struck from a part of the song. it feels good kasi with the things that are happening, somehow i need to release my emotions. and this helps me. really.

goodbyes always hurt. but if it's for the better, then say it. it may hurt for a long time, but the hurt will fade. kung ipagpapatuloy mo pa, at patuloy ka lang nasasaktan, wag nalang.

we don't need to find a setup where someone wins and someone loses.

expectations.

2008-03-04T11:42:00.002Z

it hurt so much it crushed us everyday.
sometimes, optimism can hurt like hell.

today reminded me that i should always hate days before the medalists' exams.

i don't really have much to say.

i just want to say sorry to someone i've hurt today, because of my stupid expectations. sorry.

and guys, don't expect too much. trust me. it gets harder everytime you fall.

why does every moment have to be so hard?

restoration and repair. :)

2008-03-03T10:33:00.002Z

you love me no longer i know and,
..love fool! :)) :))

as an optimistic person, i'd say i've had a happy day. :|

knowing, pinapasok kami ng 6am sa school at wala naman palang shoot. absent siya. :( at nagkamisunderstanding pa kami ng bestfriend ko.

oh well. pero not bad naman. kasi naexmpt ako sa computer. wuhooo! masaya ako. :))

susko, ang init kanina nung TLE. amoy lupa pa. but it was surely a hell lot of fun! x)
as in, bonding nanaman with TC! we were all singing. :)) habang nagtatanim. like farmers. :)) faneeeyyy.

last day na nga pala ng mga medalist tom. haaay. mamimiss ko talaga sila. tsssss. si patrick naman kasi e. ngayon lang nakipagbati. :| haha. goodluck sa kanila!

ang lapit na ng summer. i can feel it! :)

basta, yun lang siguro ang mga nanyare today. boring nga e. pero masaya na din. :)

bakit ka ba pinabayaang mawala ng di inaasahan?

countdown to 1o0.

2008-03-02T08:55:00.002Z

seasons are changing and waves are crashing.
..and stars are falling to break us apart.

87th post i think? well here it goes.

we're counting days till: kuya marlin's birthday
the medalists' departure. (awwwww...)
my birthday?

haai. i hate it when people change. i've been saying that since some of my close and trusted friends started changing, without me of course. and it hurts. especially when it's the one friend you've learned to trust and love. haai. ang saklap talaga. lalo na kung dati kayo yung pinaka close. tas ngayon. wala nalang. badtrip. overload.

bati na pala kami ni pat. :)
wala lang. ang saya noh? ang tagal din kasi namin hindi nag uusap. it's been 2 long, VERY LONG months.. and i'm glad that we're reviving our old friendship. but sadly, aalis na sila sa wed. . kung kelan sana super happy na namin. haai. i remember nung nagpost ako last year, bago din sila umalis. woo! memries. :))

yesterday was m!nt's birthday. we had our zl shoot and vid dulaan. and she treated us for lunch. ng ano? ng chicken fillet sa mcdo! haha! parang anlo lang e. :))

in less than 2 months, it's gonna be my birthday. i have no plans yet. but i think my mother is planning something. gusto ko siyang kasama. pero hindi pwede, as usual. adn friends nalang isasama ko. tutal, SOBRANG SAYA ko last year. kasi sila kasama ko. i'm hoping for a better birthday celebration this year.

i'm always hoping. .

till here. it's a long post, considering ang tagal kong tinamad. haha!

does it hurt when you think about me and how broken my heart is?

ended up writing here in my old sanctuary.

2008-02-12T10:42:00.000Z

"nothing lasts forever."
please, tell me that we are not included in this stupid curse. :'((

6 days to go until my tropa's first anniversary. first celebrated, i mean. let's see what i've written here last monthsary.

HAPPY MONTHSARY sa pearlshakes koo! teka, dapat anniv na ata. hahaha. oh well, it's eighteen. and it's funfunfun day. visions in my mind of the day that we met, you showed me things that i'll never forget. awww. i miss my pearlshakes also. they're my tropa and i'll never leave them behind. i admit, di naman naiiwasan yung mga big time misunderstandings. kahit di kami buo araw araw, alam namin na paglingon namin sa likod nanjan parin buong tropa, nagllaughtrip at nagdadamayan. tagal tagal na namin, nagstart nung grade 6. tapos last year, may mga nadagdag, may mga umalis. pero masaya padin kami. then this year came, it's definately not easy. bumalik tomi namin, yung dog naman namin di parin bumabalik. oh how i miss my ashtee arfarf. pero kahit na ganun, di parin nagbabago pagmamahal namin sa isa't isa. MORE YEARS TO COME mga mahal ko, punyemas overloooaaadd! hahaha!

gahd. hindi ko siguro to maiisip isulat ngayon, since we're currently "pshx at war". sana matapos na to. CEASE FIRE. huhu. i miss the old us. :((

♥lots,
kai. :[

why does it have to be "moving on" again?

2007-11-26T10:26:00.000Z

i'm fighting urges to fall again.
..yet i stumble.

darn. feel ko mag emote ngayon. bear with me. today has been a really bad day. and i'm still expecting a "twist of the day", which would get me through the day like before. mondays always suck at first, but it never fails to give me a reason to smile before i sleep. so i hope that there would be a fun twist today, to strengthen me for tomorrow naman.

why does today suck? kasi i saw him. my new crush. pero may kasamang girl. and as i've heard, may crush etong girl kay new crush. at heartthrob pa tong girl. so ouch diba? ampppp. saklap talaga. at ang pinaka masakit pa dun, wala naman akong karapatang magselos diba? peste. di ko alam kung bat ako nakakaramdam ng ganto. eh ni hindi ko naman siya kakilala personally. i mean, yes i see him everyday. (btw i get so excited everyday to see him! :]) pero di nga ata niya alam na nag eexist ako eh. pero bat ako super affected, super hurt? BAKIIITTTT. naloloka na ko. swear.

namimiss ko na si best friend. sana nag aadvice siya sakin ngayon. bat kung kelan kailangang kailangang kailangan ko na siya, dun siya mawawala? bat kung kelan handa na kong tratuhin siya ng patas, dun siya maggive up sakin? haaaaaaaaaaay.

anyways, back to my new crush.

yun lang. di ko kasi siya ganun ka kilala. pero ang sakit talaga, sobra.

it hurts, having to lose someone even before you get him.

leave or stay?

2007-09-02T08:45:00.000Z

"i'm not going anywhere, nathan."

-haley james scott.

it's been a long time since i last posted. hahaha. we just had our linggo ng wika, and it was damn fine. hahaha. super saya talaga. lalo na yung last day, napaka worth it. teka, di muna ko magkkwento ngayon. nitatamad ako eh. basta ang wafu ni jai reyes, yung o5 ng admu. hahaha. loving him. ;)

i wish that you could hold me when i'm lonely.

2007-08-18T12:23:00.000Z

feeling the same thing i felt when i missed him.

wonder if he feels the same way.

emptiness. haha. yun yung feeling na nikakatakutan ko. naramdaman ko na dati, ayoko na sana maulit eh. sad to say, nauulit. takteng yan. haha. i hope i'll be able to see him soon. oh well, kahit naman makita ko siya. anong pinagbago?? haha. tae talaga. naiinis ako sa sarili ko. hahahahahahahahahaha.

nanood kami ng a love story ng pinsan ko. =)) =)) *cheers to my pumpykin!* hahaha. okay naman, iyak nanaman ng iyak nanay ko. as usual, haha.

tae, wala akong mapost. don't know why. i miss school, and it sucks. but when i'm studying sa school naman, i'm craving for a freaking day off. rawwrrrr. hahaha. adn, paramdam kayo. kailangan ko ng inspirasyon. hahaha.

HAPPY MONTHSARY sa pearlshakes koo! teka, dapat anniv na ata. hahaha. oh well, it's eighteen. and it's funfunfun day. visions in my mind of the day that we met, you showed me things that i'll never forget. awww. i miss my pearlshakes also. they're my tropa and i'll never leave them behind. i admit, di naman naiiwasan yung mga big time misunderstandings. kahit di kami buo araw araw, alam namin na paglingon namin sa likod nanjan parin buong tropa, nagllaughtrip at nagdadamayan. tagal tagal na namin, nagstart nung grade 6. tapos last year, may mga nadagdag, may mga umalis. pero masaya padin kami. then this year came, it's definately not easy. bumalik tomi namin, yung dog naman namin di parin bumabalik. oh how i miss my ashtee arfarf. pero kahit na ganun, di parin nagbabago pagmamahal namin sa isa't isa. MORE YEARS TO COME mga mahal ko, punyemas overloooaaadd! hahaha!

but if this love's not ours to have,
i'll let it go.
with your goodbye..

i just want you closer, is that alright?

2007-08-17T07:40:00.000Z

i gave you a test.

and you failed.

uhhhhhhhhhh. i miss adn. adn adn adn adn adn. T_T it's adn i miss the most. why? simple.

1. going strong ang pearlshakes, walang epal.

2. sobrang caring ng mga teachers.

3. madaling pakisamahan ang mga tao.

it sucks how 2 months changed the ones i love. in short, dahil lang sa summer nagbago ang mga tao. last night, i was talking to a friend of mine. he said that he hates it when people change. sabi ko, "everything happens for a reason. time heals wounds. sooner or later baka marealize mo na nagbago pala sila for the better." haay. bakit ganon, pag sa ibang tao ako nag aadvice, parang napakadali. pero pag sakin, ang hirap mag apply. nakakainiiisss. eto nga pala, miss list ko.

BOYS.
PAUL= appointed secretary! mr. badminton! galing kmanta, french fries!
aaron= THE CHEER MASTER! #1 SA PAGLEAD! GO SEXY! HATAW! 'DON'T CALL THEM FATS, CALL THEM "LIPIDS".:p
GIL= one of the sexiest. hilig sa gameboy! mr. science. computer know-it-all.
jasper= GRADE 3? SMALL BUT TERRIBLE!DOTA. MR. SELFLESS.
ISLAU= mr. swimmer! pride of adn! taekwondo or swimming? hmm..
mitch= MATH BOY! ANG RASON NG PAG AAWAY! MASYADO DAW KC XANG GWAPO. UH OH! (CALL ME!)
KEVIN= black is beauty! super intriguing this year. tsk tsk!
reyben= REGBEN! CAVITE BOY 2! SOUTH! ANG KAPE SA GATAS AT KAPE TANDEM!DANI= sam's competitor. the only male cheerdancer! oh dba?
gelo= RED! T! GWAPO AT ANG VERY SPECIAL CHILD! ANG GATAS SA GATAS AT KAPE TANDEM.
PAT= mr. adobe! one of the computer games lover! artistic!
dan= COMPUTER GAMES ADDICT! DA BEST SA MGA GAMES! DUNKIN DANOTS!
GAB= captain america!super rich! mahilig din sa computer games!
ryan= BEST IN SCIENCE!.."YABANG MO AH!"
STEPHEN= all over fasshion guy..with the outfits tlga! mahilig sa cds! adik sa ppt!

GIRLS.
micha= LOYAL SUBJECT! OLIVE OIL! MYX! GREEN CARD! TATAKBONG VALEDICTORIAN!:p
TATA= gnda ng locker! laging iba per season! prang bookstore!
mika= MAKATI GIRL! THE BEST IN TAEKWONDO! TAEKWONDO OR SWIMMING. YIHEE!:p
CHA= small but terrible! quiet but noisy? super smart! galing sa comp!
sonja= CONCERT QUEEN! GO GELO! GO LNG NG GO SONJA! SINGER NA COMPOSER PA!
JESHA= rock gurl. mhlig sa black and purple. nakatira sa shang!
gar= 99 IN MATH NUNG 3RD QUARTER! THE BEST IN MATH AT PARANG CALCU!SWIMMING POOL! BEST DANCER!
INNA= ms. gymnastics. adik eh. cartwheel lng ng cartwheel!
lloyd= FELLOWSHIP? NGING MALAKING INTRIGA DN ANG AWAY NLA NI *****.. NYAY! BLIND ITEM?!
ABBY= nakatyo lgi in ccf time! ms. toilet! mhlig pmnta sa cr!
janzy= DANCING QUEEN! PARANG ANGHEL DHIL SUPER BAIT! XA SI INES SA BIAG NI LAM-ANG.
ALEC= proud to be bisaya! go lang sa taekwondo!
kai= MHLIG SA I LOVE YOU. SWEET AT SUPER LOVE ANG MUSIC! AS IN! ISA DN DANCER.
IDA= super artistic!the best voice over sa mge presentations! siya c annie batumbakal!
joanne= SUPER NICE. VERY RELIGIOUS! QUIET PERO MSAYA AT MBAIT!
CELINA= quiet at shy kng ttgnan. pero ahum! maingay dn yan! at mhlig sa anime! twins dn cla ng ate nya!
charmi= MS. FASHIONISTA! NAGKARON CLA NI GELO NG BED SCENE! HAHA! TSKTSK. LOVE NA LOVE C MARTHA! UNG ASO NYANG MLIIT.:p
JILA= c ms. sossy! nakatira sa atc! mhlig magcook at prng electra ang hair!
annlo= AKA. MF! MARIA FLORDELUNA! SEXY! CAVITE GIRL!? NAKS! UP TO DATE AT MHILIG SA CHISMAX!
BIANX= the make=up artist! and ms. havai. mhlig tmawa! ang speaker na tnubuan ng muka!

-kinuha ko to sa profile ng adn. haayyy. miss ko din sila nina justin jasmin emika tomi at moalong. haaaayyy.

today is when i need you the most,
please don't walk out on me.

you got me breakin' down and i just can't figure out why.

2007-08-16T02:12:00.000Z

i thought it was just you and i.

but then i'm wrong.

suspeenddeeeddd! hahaha. and it's our reco tomorrow. ang nakakainis lang kahapon, 9 0o palang suspended na. tapos 12 pa kami nipauwi. grrrr. oh well, nagpractice nalang kami ng sb. hahaha. ano kaya ang magagawa ko today? ggaaahhdd. i've been dying to watch in the land of women since last last week. nakakainis, si janzy may kopya na. ako? wala paa. grrrrrr. gusto ko makapunta ng ruins. hahaha.

wala na ko masabi. namimiss ko na si *t***h. ang saya saya ko nung 14. kasi ano. hahaha. salamat ch!ch. =)) on the other hand, namimiss ko din naman si jacket. wala lang, nakakapanibago kasi pag di kami nagkakasama. PERO walang malixa. friends nalang talaga. i can feel myself moving on again, kasi di na ko nanlalamig pag naiisip ko siya. di na ko naeexcite mag ol dahil sa kanya. okay na nga sakin kahit hindi mag ol buong araw like nung saturday eh. pero still, ayokong mwala yung friendship namin. hindi dahil di na ko naeexcite mag ol, it means na wala na siya halaga sakin. he's still special. he will always be. pero yun nga, hindi na special yung feelings ko for him. last sunday, sabi ko sa mommy ko gusto ko na magive up sa friendship namin, para di na ko masaktan. then sakto! may nagtext. si ate emar. quote siya eh, nakasulat "the moment you think of giving up, think of the reason why you've held on for so long." take note, the reason why you've held on for so long. singular siya, ibig sabihin it only takes one reason. only one reason para maghold on pa ulit ako. kasi wala namang masama eh. chaka sayang din naman diba? sigesige, dito nalang. sabi ko kanina wala na ko masabi, marami papala. =))

i should have listened to my best friend, she knew it'd be a perfect match.

love is both dangerous and pointless.

2007-08-14T13:16:00.000Z

you got me hangin' on, but we're not moving on.

could this be "it" once again?

i've been reading this novel called "veronika decides to die". wala lang, i won't post anything about the book here. surprise surpriiise! haha.

i'm trying to read between the lines..you got me going out of my mind.

currently encountering someone who's very very malabo. di ko maintindihan, urong sulong. walang definite mood. nakakainis, kelan ba magiging okay ang lahat? akala ko kasi okay na eh, di parin pala. yung tipong, ayaw ka niya mawala, pero takot naman siyang saktan mo siya. gusto niya magkasama kayo, pero may iba siyang nakaksama. kasi hindi pwede. ano ba yan. haay.

bat kaya ang bboring ng mga posts ko? i need inspiration.

said he adores me, and then ignores me.

i despise you.

2007-08-12T02:04:00.000Z

die. backstabbing b*tch.

what happens when everything you know turns out to be a lie?

ugghh. nakakainis. ewan, pinapaligiran ako ngayon ng mga malalandi at garapal sa lalake. amppppp. i really don't know why this girl who everyone's been looking up to is turning out to be a reaaaaaaal #$^%$#&&# monster. nakakainis, excited na excited pa naman akong makasama sila, after a month ata. tapos sasalubungin niya ako with a big bang?!?!? &%^*@^* rumors. nakakainis talaga. matapos akong bwisitin ni toot. darating naman tong epal na to. tae talaga. you know, typical backstabbers. kaibigan lang pag kaharap mo sila, may pahug hug pa. pero pag nakatalikod ka, AHAS naman pala. kung alam mo lang talaga, mawawalan ka ng kaibigan pag pinagpatuloy mo pa yan. kinamumuhian kita. ewwie. akala mo simpleng pacute cute lang, yun pala, NANLALANDI na. ewwww.

sorry guys kung ganito yung post ko, may nakasalubong lang kasi ako kagabing isang malaking igorot. tae.

you can take it, just don't break it.

2007-08-11T00:59:00.000Z

am i falling for him for the third time?

no..not again? =c

you are my first romance..and i'm willing to take a chance.

wee, kamusta nman. wala akong magawa. hahaha. oh well, mr. lifey has been very kind to me lately. i hope this doesn't change. =) i've been listening to this new song, it's called last request. it is sooooo freaking nice. nakakatuwa, catchy kasi yung tono. napakinggan ko sa abt ur luv last week. ang saya kaya. hahahahahaha.

so yun, pupunta kaming sm ngayon, with my girl friends. hahaha. sige, sisimulan ko na yung anger post ko. uuuuuhhhh.

have you ever met someone, na isang MALAKING MALAKING singit. nakakainis siya, he/she's stealing our friends away from us. nakakairita talaga. at ang masama pa dun, nigagamit niya yung pagkamayaman niya. kamusta naman yun, at least ako hindi KINAMUMUHIAN ng crush ko. ay, mahal niya pala yun. EWWIEEEE. nakakadiri talaga siya. take this, imbis na kami magkakasama ng *********** ngayon, sila. dibaa?! nakakainsulto talaga siya. uhh..i hate him/her so much. i'm sorry kung ganto yung post ko, i hate him/her talaga eh. sorry again.

haha, i love you guys! =))=))

back to you, it always comes around.
over you, i'm never over.

i wouldn't ever wanna see you frown.

2007-08-07T11:07:00.000Z

and don't you know i would move heaven and earth to be together forever with you! =)

what if you would also move heaven and earth just to stay away from me?

woosh, ang saklap naman ng panimula ko. hahaha. nalss ako sa together forever today. kaya yun. pati title ko, yun na din. kamusta naman diba? =)))) oh well, that's the truth. haha.

so today we had our results galing sa qt's. i'm happy naman, kahit hindi naman kataasan scores ko. =)))) bastaaa. happy na ko dun. for the first time, i won't ask for more. bleeehh. =p hahaha.

haay, sayang. akala ko pa naman magiging suuuper happy ako today, dahil 7. hay nako. ayoko na nga umasa sa mga dates! iniiissss. : grabe, wala akong mapost ngayon. sana suspended bukas. tapos sana mamove sa thursday yung zl. tapos yung sched for thurs mamove sa friday. tas yung friday sa monday. tapos okay na yun. hahahahaha. ang daming sana. as if naman may matutupad jan. nakooo. hahaha. grabe, sorry talaga wala akong mapost. magtag nalang kayo ng magtag. mahal na mahal ko kayong lahat. okay na yung reason na yun para magtag kayo rytie? hahaha.

aint no mistaking, it's true love we're making.
something to ~~last~~ for all time..

i wanted you to fight for me.

2007-08-06T06:28:00.000Z

cause i'm here, you're there.

and we just can't be together.

weeeee, tapos na quarterly exaaaams! cheeersss! ang saya. hahaha. i love today, pero i hope mas maging masaya tomorrow. seven! weeee. ano naman kaya mangyayari tomorrow? oh well, ayoko na nga mag expect! waaaah. hahaha.

grabe, ano kaya magandang ipost ngayon? wuhoo. ang bagal bagal naman kasi ng patcher ng o2 ko eh. kainis! sige, magpopost nalang ako about my day. =) so yun, pagkagising ko, narealize ko na ang aga aga papala. kaya nag aral muna ako. eh 12 am na nga ako nakatulog kasi hindi ako mapakali, paikot ikot lang ako sa kama. tapos ang aga aga ko pa nagising. good luck naman sakin. so yun, inaral ko yung asian map. pati yung absolute value sa math. tas biglang kumatok si mommy, sabi kumain na daw ako. grabe, honestly, mas madami pa yung time na iginugol ko sa pagmumuni muni kesa sa pag-aaral. kamusta naman yun. kaya wala maxadong pumasok sa utak ko. waaah. = then kumain ako. tas punta sa school. binulaga ako ng bagong hairstyle ni janzy, muka siyang musmos. =p pero cute naman, nawindang lang talaga ako. =)))) tas yun, nagtest kami, then uwian na.

there's this quote, na nisend sakin ng ka y.e. ko. and it really did struck me. here it goes.

pinakamasarap?
yung di sinasabi, pero nararamdaman.

yung walang singsing, pero kuntento.

yung walang sumpaan, pero walang alinlangan.

at yung walang titolo, ~~pero alam mong iyo.~~

woosh, ang ganda. ewan, pero totoo siya. kasi nga, i always ask for more. kahit dapat maging contented na ko, wala parin. i always dwell on the "missing" side. nakakainis. ewan ko ba, pero nakikita ko na nga siya lagi, nakakatext. pero ayoko ng ganon lang. nakakainis talaga akoo. pag nagtext naman kasi siya, parang gm lang. rarrr. alam ko naman na mejo naiirita na yun sakin eh, pero bakit ayaw niyang ipamuka? para umayaw na ko ng tuluyan sa kanya. bwahahaha. >:)

hay nako, nakakainis yung post ko ngayon. saboggg. =

i said i wasn't gonna fall in love again,
but then pop! goes my heaarttt!=))=))

what happened?

2007-08-04T08:35:00.000Z

rewind, playback, repeat.

"you asked her to come back. when she did, what did you do to make her stay?"

weeeeee. yesterday was fun. hahaha. when i woke up, i studied. hahaha. then nagbihis, then umalis. weee.(please refer to my last post para malaman niyo kung saan ako nagpunta at kung sinosino mga kasama ko.=p)

oh well, naranasan niyo na ba yung boy meets girl tas girl falls for boy tapos boy hurts girl tapos girl leaves tapos boy asks her to come back then when girl comes back boy hurts her again then the cycle repeats? haha! nagets niyo ba? bwahahaha. ang labo. pero pag inintindi niyo, you'll realize na it's my very own story. story lang, walang love. kakatamad na magtiwala sa love eh. joooke. hahaha. oh well, my story. =)

tapos eto nanaman ako, magffall sa ibang guy tapos eventually maglelet go para sa isang kaibigan. saaklap. pero ganun eh. i'm just a typical girl na takot mainlove. sabi nga mga kaklase ko, i'm the stereotype of a girl. hindi ko alam kung good ba yun o bad. =)))) oh well, good man o bad. ganon ako eh. :P

alam niyo ba, ayoko na kay stitch. kasi ayoko na magkagusto sa tiga tc. at feeling ko may gusto sa kanya yung friend ko. hahaha. yun yon eh. kung wala man siyang gusto kay stitch, ayoko parin kay stitch. kasi ayaw sa kanya ng mga kaibigan ko. bakit kayaaa. hahaha.

3 kinds of guys na madaling mahalin pero mahirap panindigan.

1. the best friend - mahirap magfall sa kanya kasi masisira ang friendship. amps. mahirap din magfall sa kanya kasi kilalang kilala ka na niya. at pag iniwasan ka niya kasi you're better off as friends, nawalan ka na nga ng love, nawalan ka pa ng best friend.

2. the ex. - mahirap magfall sa kanya kasi isusumbat niya sayo na "bakit mo ko pinakawalan, mahal mo papala ako eh." o kaya "yan kasi, nakipag break ka pa. kawalan mo ko!" or worst, "magdusa kaaaa!" see? ang saklap.

3. your social counterpart. - eto. yung mga madalas nating nakikita sa mga pinoy movies. yung nerd naiinlove sa heartthrob, yung jock naiinlove sa weirdo. mahirap magfall sa kanya kasi KADALASAN, ayaw sa kanya ng mga kaibigan mo. diba friends over boys? at usually, sila yung mga guys na nangttrip lang. yung mamahalin ka lang dahil sa *#^@)&!(@($ pustahan. peste.

^^totoo naman diba? it sucks. pero kadalasan, hindi lang nangyayari yang mga yan sa movies, kundi pati sa totoong buhay. nakakainis talaga. kasi 2 jan ay napagdaanan ko na. anak ng. ang swerte swerte ko no? errgggg. pero eto parin ako, balik ng balik. may mga dumadating nga, pero pinalalampas ko. kasi mas gusto ko parin yung &%^#%^*@$&( siya. uughhh. sige na, dito nalang. inoorasan nanaman ako ng tatay ko eh. kakainiiiisss!

i'd rather have bad times with you,
than good times with someone else.
i'd rather be beside you in a storm,
than safe and warm by myself.
we'd rather have hard times together than to have it easy apart.
i'd rather have the one who holds my heart. ='c

listen closer to the words i say.

2007-08-02T11:22:00.000Z

move closer, i don't want you to go.

closer..closer. make me believe that this will never end.

friends..

lovers..

sino ba dapat priority? akala ko ba FRIENDS over ~~boys~~?
haay. nako namaan. we had our quarterly test in computer and ~~biology~~ a while ago. oh well, it was deadly. the biology. woooooshieness. taena talaga. napakahiraaaap! haay. ganyan talaga ang buhay. at ang masaklap pa dun, walang pasok bukas. so namove sa monday yung exams namin sa math, ap and tle. daaaaaarrrnnn. akala ko pa naman, makakahinga na ko ng maluwag. oh well, aalis naman ako bukas. *cheeeeeeers!* kasama ko sila daniel, charmi, mf, at shirra. sino pa ba? hahaha. ang weird. amppsss, di pa showing in the land of women. ano naman kaya papanuorin namin bukas. gusto ko horror eh, ayaw ni mf. >=)) oh well, simpsons ata sabi ni daniel. ayos yun, para matawa naman ako. =)))) kamusta naman yung title ko? ang emo. tapos yung post ko, maligaya. what da heeeecckkk. kakainis. tapos di ko pa nabibigay yung mangyan bulletin kay ms. grace. kasi di ko siya mahanap kanina. nako namaaaan. =)))) tawa nalang. =))))

kamusta naman kaya si stitch? 3 days ko din siya makikita. i wonder, bakit kaya hindi ko siya masyadong namimiss ngayon? haay ewan. confused nanaman si kai kai kai.

o sige, dito nalang. baka tumagilid pa lakad ko bukas.may curfew curfew pa kasing nalalaman tong tatay ko eh. namaaaan.

follow me, and everything is alright.
i'll be the one to tuck you in at night.
and if you wanna leave, i can guarantee,
you won't find nobody else like me.=)

sana'y wag mo kong sisihin kung di ko kayang pigilin.

2007-07-24T11:58:00.000Z

sabi mo na mINahal mo ko ngunit di naman seryoso..

take note of the PAST tense.

why do feelings change? ugh. paaaiiinn. kisses kasi eh, lagi nalang talaga. wooottt. kakainis. if only he knew.. "this is how i spent my summer kisses, wanting you. i'm just to scared to admit it." sorry, etong post kong to. tungkol lang sa kanya. i'm so sorry guys. T_T

thoughts from my friends..

kai: mamahalin mo pa ba siya kung di ka naman niya mahal?

mariz: oo naman, hanggat hindi niya ko nipapagbawalan..go lang.

kai:hindi naman ako gusto niya..

janzy:eh san ka nagiging manhid!? nagiging manhid ka na natatae siya?!?!

kai:i miss kisses.

daniel:ano ka ba, pareho naman kayong may gusto sa isa't isa di lang kayo nagaaminan.

kai:hindi naman ako mahal ni kisses eh.

micha:ano ka ba! mahal na mahal ka kaya ni kisses!

^^dapat ba kong maniwala sa mga to? haay. sana totoo lahat ng mga sinasabi nila. sobrang SANA.

everytime i see you falling i get down on my knees and pray.

stop, go, ano ba talaga?

2007-07-20T06:49:00.000Z

boys can really ruin your day.

but still, they're the ones that makes it happy afterwards.

napakalabo moo! raar. i hate you, i love you, i hate that i love you. haha! oh well, today was aryt. it's my lucky day. pero naging unlucky din, dahil nanaman sa kanya. amp siya. hahaha.

kisses..
kisses..
kisses.

kisses nalang lagi. hahaha. there's something about him. i don't know kung ano yung something na yun. but no matter what that something is, it catches me. it strucks me. kasi that something..is him. hahaha. ang labo ko talaga ngayon. bakit kaya. eh hindi naman ganun kasaya araw ko. nakoooo.

weekend na! at shortened period ngayon. hahaha. weee. i'll have my haircut tomorrow. i'm so excited and i just can't hide it! i'm also excited to see my y.e. mates. SUPER MUCH excited. kakainis naman kasi eh, nagpasukan lang, nahirapan na kami makipag communicate sa isa't isa. raar. buti pa nung summer, i was living my life. walang kisses na naninira ng araw ko. taena yan, chaka lahat ng gusto ko nakukuha ko nung summer. hahaha. i misssss my SUMMEEERRR DAAYYSSS. ngayon school days na eh. what makes it better than summer?
1. pearlshakes!
2. kisses.
yun lang. but sadly, sila na rin nagpapalungkot sakin ngayon. pero sila parin nagpapasaya sakin. waahh. grabe. i hate this. buti pa nung freshie ako, mas madali. mas masaya. parang ang lame ng second year, walang thrill. kailangan ko makahanap ng reason para excited ako pumasok araw araw. saan kaya ako makakahanap? woosh. araw-araw, dumadami na ng dumadami ang songs ko para sa buhay ko ngayon. hahaha. kaya nga ba andami na laman ng playlist ko eh. oh well, i love the way my songs are in my playlist. actually, may built in player ako sa utak ko. sa lahat ng mga nangyayare, may song na tumutugtog. hahaha. soundtrack!? =))))

sana'y wag mo kong sisihin,
kung di ko kayang pigilin,
sabi mo na mahal mo ko.
NGUNIT DI NAMAN SERYOSO...

i was about to make this work out..

2007-07-19T12:32:00.000Z

..but then you gave up.

funny how WE are just not meant to be.

pain. pain. pain. i'm sorry guys. i won't be able to make a good post tonight. ugh, i hate today. ano ba meron? ewan ko din eh. i hope tomorrow will be better. ='c the good thing is, i just finished my book. haha.

and i had my heart badly broken.

they told me to go on, must i follow?

2007-07-18T11:48:00.000Z

walang kadala dala.

pero okay lang, sanay nanaman ako masaktan eh. whaat. T_T

err. i miss my friends. it's not that i don't see them everyday. it's just that we're drifting apart. it hurts me that other people tell me to give up already because this fight's not worth fighting for. "dapat ngayon alam mo na na hindi totoong friends over boys. eventually matututunan mo din yan pag naranasan mo na." amp. this is b*llsh*t. i mean, i've been through relationships before. but i never left my friends behind. ewan ko, pero parang ang sakit naman nun kung magpapaka plastik ka jan na mahal na mahal mo yung friends mo tapos ipagpapalit mo naman sila. ano naman kaya feeling ng kaibigan mo. ughhh. i was told by a friend recently, "tapos pag may kailangan ikaw din naman lalapitan." this struck me. kasi naman, this is what i'm feeling right now. haay. ewan ko na. i don't want to give up. i swear. but i have my own limitations too. i'm not asking THEM to leave their ~~other~~ friends. kaya lang, wag naman sana kami itaboy. na parang feeling tuloy namin may kasama kang iba, kaya pinapaalis mna kami. ampp. samantalang dati. haaayyy.

unlonely nights..
romantic moments..
the love, the love,
what about ~~them~~????

today was aryt. not bad, pero i can't say na it's better that these past few days. haaay. last night, i watched the replay of the last season of one tree hill. nalungkot ako, shempre. ganon naman talaga. usually, endings are painful. so as goodbyes. ayoko na dugtungan pa ng "start of a new beginning.". para kasing ang plastik. raar.

so sabi nila, i don't have to give up (regarding sa past posts ko) sa kanya. meron naman daw kasing patutunguan. hahaha. (LOOOOL!!!!!) that was pure hard crap. masakit mang tanggapin, pero wala na kong magagawa. (sorry coffee crumble, ch!ch at kamshi.) pero muka na kong t*nga eh. nako naman. isa lang react ko jan eh, *ASAAAAAA*. hahaha. pero honestly, kahit madami dumadating, ayaw ko palitan eh. labo ko noh? hahaha. gets niyo ba? =)))) iba kasi siya eh. no one made me feel like this before. i swear. ibang iba. ;)

and it's wrong for me to feel this way.

crash and burn.

2007-07-16T12:08:00.000Z

mondays will always be mondays.

let him go, learn a lesson.

typical mondays. haay. malungkot sa simula, but as the day progresses umookay naman. it's good because i usually go to bed with peace of mind kasi nga the day turned out to be good. but i want change. i think most of us do. it's human nature. laging nag aask for more. ugh. sana naman everyday akong maging happy. wala nang downfalls. i know that's impossible. pero is it bad to hope? is it bad to wish for a smooth sailing sophie life? uhh..ang daming assignments. but still i had time for my bloggy. kasi pag uwi ko i made it a point na tatapusin ko lahat ng homeworks ko. ng maaga. to finish the woman who had two navels. but sadly, di ko alam isasagot sa ccf ko. kaya inuna ko muna to. >:) mean me. hahaha. oh well, absent nga pala si dudeparetsong today. habang tumatagal, i'm becoming more and more hopeless sa tropa. but i won't give up. sabi nga ni ate bea, hindi maiiwasan ang mga misunderstandings sa isang tropa. pero nakakalungkot lang kasi, araw araw kaming nagsasama pag lunch, pero wala lang. wala namang napapag usapan. tawanan nalang. haay. binadtrip ako ng tatay ko, currently not in the mood to prolong this post. >:c

hate that i love you.

i could never explain.

2007-07-13T11:25:00.000Z

the touch of your hand says you'll catch me.

i'm just not sure kung kaya mo ko. =c

wooshie. may bago nanaman akong nikakakaadikang kanta, hahaha. love me for a reason. haay. kay dami daming shocking revelations ngayon. at talaga namang shocking. woosh. good luck naman. for all the girls na nagbabasa neto, i'm sure alam no yung nararamdaman ko. sa mga boys naman, kung manhid kayo at walang pake, read on. trust me, this will help you guys. para naman sa mga lalakeng hopeless romantic at agressive, umalis na kayo. di kayo makakarelate. wee. hahaha. so there, sobrang sakit kaya ng nararamdaman ko. if only i can be numb.. haysusss. how can time be so wrong for love to come along?. basta. yan ang drama ng buhay ko ngayon. i feel happy kasi at least alam kong naramdaman din niya yun. (woosh, paminsan minsan, nakakaramdam din pala ang mga manhid. =))) kaya lang, eto yung masaklap eh. ang tagal kaya bago ako nakapagmove on. suuper. ask my friends. oh well. kaya nga iniwasan ko siya eh. kasi nattakot akong bumalik ang lahat. yung ako nanaman yung martyr. ako nalang yung nagmamahal.. pero hindi ko pala mapipigilan yun. woosh. good luck sakin, "moving on.." nanaman ako. haay. kelan kaya dadating yung time na hindi na "moving on" ang theme ng buhay ko? siguro dadating lang yun pag natutunan ko na siya makalimutan? haay. good luuckkk. waah. prang ang dami na dumating na lalake sa buhay ko. pero wala ata makakapalit skanya. kakawalang gana magblog. i need inspiration. sorryyy. ='c

i didn't mean for you to get hurt,
so ever, we can make it better
and tell me boy now wouldn't that be sweet?

should i play this game of just being your friend?

2007-07-01T11:17:00.000Z

makapiling ka, makasama ka yan ang panalangin ko..

eh pano kung hindi yun ang panalangin mo? lagooot. ='c

my weekend was so so busy. yesterday, was a dancing day. hahaha. but today, we went shopping sa trinoma at gh. it's my first time to go to trinoma, and i wasn't dissappointed when i got there. yay! mom bought be a hot new top from nafnaf. hahaha. then sa gh naman mom bought me balloon skirties! hahaha. wala na ko masabi, hahaha. good luck nalang sa tc sa linggong to! yay!

when i know that's not where i want it to end..

i can't ignore this if this is love.

2007-06-28T11:31:00.000Z

away away awaaay.

..just take me away.

wooosh. kay bilis ng pangyayari, ang bilis ng "today." =)))) pero mas mabilis bukas, kasi shortened period. yea babyyy! tas friday pa. ansayaa! hahaha. so there, another burden, or should i say hindi na burden kasi sasayaw lang naman, is added to my list. hahaha. dasayawiiit. awww, memories. we have to work with "the prayer" by charlotte church and i don't know if it's josh groban. hahaha. i think yun na yung chosen song ng gsc last year. pero okay lang. hahaha. i'll just enjoy it. and the endless practices. agaaain. hahaha. wala na ko masabi, magkaaway nanaman kami ng kaibigan ko. kamusta naman itooo. =))

i don't think you're getting there..

ikaw ang liwanag sa dilim. =)

2007-06-26T12:24:00.000Z

kay sarap magmahal! =)

pero kung hindi lang din ikaw magmamahal sakin, wag na uy!

uggghh. i'm freaking sick today. but that didn't stop me from making my day extraspecial. =) haay, we had our first play a while ago. binibining phatupats, (tama ba spelling? hahaha.) the modern version. hahaha. i wish we practiced more, so that our performance may have been magnificent. pero sabi naman nila okay na daw, and nasatisfy naman si sir martin samin. not bad for our first plaay! hahaha. i wish our future plays ay maganda rin. haay, ang dami daming activities. pero mas okay naman yun kesa sa sunod sunod na lecture na boring. hahaha.

english - interpretative dance and video documentation.
science - introduction ng i.p.
filipino - balagtas thingy.
tle at computer - portfolio

-sa mga tc jan, eto nga lang ba? hahaha. uhh..i just watched one tree hill. and it kinda helps me believe in forever. just like nathan and haley, always & forever. haay, kakatamad magpost. wala na kong masabi, i'll be absent pala tomorrow. it's my ninong's wedding! hyaay! time for me to pig out! =p

i feel the same way, i just didn't know how to put them into words.
-chase from one tree hill.

i've been thinking lately..

2007-06-25T11:53:00.000Z

i know you hate it, when i'm saying these things right in your face.

sorry naman, nagpapakatotoo lang. =)

mondays always suck for me at first, but at the end of the day i realize that it's not so suck-y afterall. hahaha. last night, nag aircon kami. after 10 years! wuhoooo! ang mahal naman kasi ng kuryente, screw you meralco! joke. hahaha. i texted him, sabi ko "nytnyt!", to give him a hint na hindi ako galit. waha, goodluck naman, when i woke up this morning ang dami na niyang text. (yay hindi siya galiit! i'm fuh-reee!) then i told myself (kagabi) na today is gonna be a happy day. and his messages was a great way to start the day, just like the old times. =) then pasok na ko sa school, as usual madulas nanaman ang floor. haay, general assembly pa naman. nakooo. then i learned na may gsc na, tc is not alone sa first floor! yay! *cheers!* hahaha. madaling natapos ang buong araw. our practice for the filipino play is limited. kaya tomorrow, i have to go to school at 6 am. scaary. tas ang dami pang homeworks ngayon, goodluck naman kung magigising ako. hahaha. oh well, hanggang dito nalang. 20 minutes till my bedtime=)

i don't care, i'm still real.

where are you, sun?

2007-06-24T08:37:00.000Z

gusto kong tumalon tumalon sa saya dahil ikaw ang kapiling!=)

ayoko nang tumalon, basang basa na ang paligid, baka madulas pa ko. =(

i hate this. miss na miss ko na talaga ang summer. when everything was so easy. there may be some problems but at least kasama ko siya. at least i could share my burdens with him. nakakalungkot, nagguilty talaga ako. i slept at 9 pm last night. sadly, nagising ako ng 11 pm. patapos na ang pbb. i was anxious, kala ko something bad happened. so i called my parents right away, and thank God nasa meeting lang sila. when they arrived, natulog sila kagad. it was hard for me to sleep kasi nga nakatulog na ko earlier. so i was stuck with myx. there's this new band. i've never heard of them. they were the guest sa myx bandarito. so they performed. the title of the song is "realize". i wasn't conscious of the lyrics at first, but the tune was catchy. then ininterview na sila ni iya. the band's name is empty siren blvd. mejo inaantok na ko nung time na yun, so i was about to turn off the tv when iya asked for the meaning of the song. tas biglang sabi nung gitarista nila, "yung ibang babae kasi, manhid." ouch. bigla akong nagising. then i remembered him again. i remembered how mean i was. sabi rin nung vocalist nila regarding the song, "kasi kadalasan sa isang relasyon hindi nagkakaintindihan. tapos bigla nalang nag aaway. pero sa totoo lang, pag inintindi mo siya, maiintindihan ka rin naman niya eh.." shoot. 3 points. yun 'yon eh. yun siguro ang naging problema namin. i was too busy to understand him. i was too busy to be sensitive enough for his feelings. it was so hard for me to sleep after that. gusto ko sana siya itext para magsorry, pero naisip ko, pano pag sinumbatan pa niya ko lalo? edi lalo lang ako makukunxenxa? but i think that's the solution. i have to accept the consequences. kahit na ano pang masasakit na salita ang marinig ko. but now isn't the right time. hindi pa ko ready..but i hope there's a possibility na maging friends kami ulit. pero please, hanggang dun nalang. nakakahiya naman, ang gaga ko sa kanya eh. sana man lang mapatawad niya tong gagang to. haay.

but this time it's different, i don't even feel the distance,
i'm not missing, i'm not missing you..

it's too early to say goodnight.

2007-06-23T09:24:00.000Z

my revelation.

"alam ko kasalanan ko, sorry."

he broke up with me. at last, nakapag decide na rin siya ng tama. =) i didn't text him for a while, at napagod na siya. haay, i feel so bad not because wala na siya sakin. i feel bad because i've hurt him so much. i know, i'm a mean girl. and i broke his heart. but those times na hindi ko siya katext, i was weighing my feelings. is it enough to carry on. or is it too low to let go? i admit. unti unti na ko nagffall sa ibang tao na wala namang pake sakin. but still, pinagpatuloy ko pa relasyon namin. kasi naman, it was hard for me to let go kasi i know his feeling. dati, ako naman yung nasa position niya when i was with *blastoise*. it hurt me like crazy! but i had my time to move on. kaya i had to convince myself to fall in love with him again. pero wala na talaga yung spark. sabi nga ni mariz, "you love him, but you're not in love with him." haay, alam ko na galit na galit siya sakin ngayon if ever man mabasa niya to. he told me he still loves me. at gabi gabi siyang umiiyak because of me. mean me! i hate this, kasi this time ako talaga ang mali. he's not the one to blame. for my friends who trusted me this time, i'm sorry. lalo na sa mga ka-y.e. ko. it's a shame, sila pa nagbabanta kay *him* if he broke my heart. pero ako papala mananakit sa kanya. i hope he'll be able to move on soon. as for me, alam ko naghihintay yung karma. nako, lagot ako. :(( siguro pause muna ako. ayoko na muna mainlove. ayoko na munang makasakit. since the sy started, ang dami ko na nasasaktan. like my friends. my bestfriend. if only you know, pati mga magulang ko nasaktan ko na din. but oh well, i know that someday i'll meet the right man for me. ang nakakainis pa dun, si *him*, mas lalo pang nasaktan dahil kay mf. mas binibigyan ko daw ng time si mf. nagselos siya kasi si mf binibigyan ko ng comment at gusto ko pa daw kachat. i can't blame him, kasi totoo namang binibigyan ko ng comment si mf at gusto ko siyang kachat. but that's because he's a close friend of mine. chaka takot akong bigyan ng comment si *him* kasi baka mabasa ng tita ko. i just didn't tell him kasi baka sabihin niya i'm too weak to protect our relationship. well i am, kasi it's so important to me. and gusto kong kachat si mf kasi napapatawa niya ako. =)) pero yun lang talaga yun, it ends there. i'm over the kilig kilig moments with him. hahaha. oh well, i guess tama na tong post na to. i'll post again soon. lavya guys!

one look, and i'm mesmerized by your eyes.

some things will always stay.

2007-06-20T10:49:00.000Z

hindi talaga maiiwasang isipin ka bawat saglit..

haay. this week is tougher. nakakapang hina yung mga situation na nakakaharap ko. haay. 23 na sa saturday. i'm not even sure kung makakapunta ako sa pm. saad. oh weell. i got accepted sa first choices ko ng zl. joooy. hay. kakainis, lagi talaga kaming nag aaway. kakapagoood. haay. i wish things were like the old times. sige, next time nalang ulit ako magpopost. pagod na ko.

weakness weakness weakness. =(

2007-06-11T10:28:00.000Z

it's all coming back to me.

"paikot-ikot na nalilito, bat ganto?"

my first day.

yay! i saw my pearlshakes again! sa totoo lang, they were a huge factor why i felt that my summer was incomplete. nakoo, kung nakagimik lang sana kami non. baka mas naging masaya pa yung summer ko. pero it's over, i can't do anything to replay my summer days. oh weeeelll, the first person i saw was nina. i'm so happy for her. jean grey finally saw wolverine again after a long long summer vacation. =) they're one of the couples i'm glad i met. my tagum. uhh, ang init ng classroom namin, nakoo. i saw my former classmates again. some were replaced. but most remained. then i saw ~~him.~~ to all who's reading this, sana naman kahit nababasa niyo to, wag nalang kayo mag react pag nakita niyo ko at sisigaw na "uy kai, crush mo parin pala si.."? nakoo. HINDI NAAA! it felt good when he noticed me. haha. for a change, siya naman unang bumati. i don't know..basta i felt glad because we're still classmates. for some uknown reasons, i feel special when he's around. oh ano, react nanaman kayo. kakagulat ba. hmmp. : miss grace (as in the former sub-unit head for the higher highschool levels) is our adviser. at first i thought that i was doomed, but when she introduced herself i felt relieved. haha. relieved because my adviser cared. not like the other advisers na wala lang, pag may activity hinahayaan yung students. i'm not saying na hindi mabuti yung mga ganung advisers. i understand na busy ang mga teachers namin and they don't have enough time for a little bit of everything. but i prayed..na sana supportive talaga maging adviser namin. like our former adviser, sir rene. =) i'm glad na ganun si miss grace. then the rest of the day turned out to be normal. the typical first day-i-missed-my-friends-so-much-day. hahaha. ang difference nga lang, iba pala pag second year. we were blinded by many requirements already. not like when we were in first year, orientation lang talaga buong araw pag first day. but i guess that's life. sometimes tomorrow has to be harder than today. haha. then i went home. nag ol ako. tapos....................hay. blanko. kakatakot, baka mahusgahan nanaman ako. well, all i can say is i'm confused. up to now. confused parin ako. kasi bakit ngayon pa..kung kelan nakahanap na ko ng makakatulong sakin pra kalimutan siya..talaga bang gusto niya ko pahirapan? hay.

if only i have met you before,
when no one else was knocking on my door
i'll let you in my heart.
cuz maybe that's the start
of a promise that we'll never be apart..

why do i ignore them behind me?

2007-06-05T05:35:00.000Z

last day of summer.

you are my sweetest downfall.

Ugh. For students like me, today is like a period in a lovely sentence. It’s the end of our summer vacation. I guess some of us are soooo excited to go to school tomorrow, some would kill to extend summer, and some of us, (like me..) are excited at the same time disappointed. Awwww. But I loved my summer. Reaally. It’s just that it’s not yet complete. Something’s missing. Haha. And I’m still in the midst of feeling my vacation days. Sucks, right? Haha. Most would like to rest today. Reflect. Reminisce. Recall the high and low days of their vacations. Like what old people do when they’re about to die already. But I guess that’s a bitter comparison. Haha. But I think you get my point already. Yay! =p Oh well, I think this post would be the summary of my summer vacation. Haha. It’s a greaaaat way to recall. For me. Haha. Oh, my freshie year. When it ended, I never thought that it would be a start of a great great great beginning. I just wish that my sophie year would end great too! Anywayyysss, during the last days of March, I wasn’t feeling my summer yet. (duuuuh.) i almost see my school friends everyday because of the clearance thingy. And I had to celebrate my birthday earlier because most of them would be out-of-town already on my real birthday. So we did the sleep-over. Aawwww. Memoriessss. after the sleep-over, (not exactly after..but few days after.) we had our first beach trip to batangas! Yay! We went there with the families of my former classmates. It was fuun! Not bad for my first beach trip. Haha. Then we went to Puerto during holy week. It’s not too exciting. It’s our family tradition. It’s getting boring every year already. But I actually enjoyed it. But not that much. haha. Oh well, it was a great bonding time for me and my cousins. I just got tanned. Huhu. Teaaarrrsss. Haha. Labooo? =p then during my reaal birthday, I didn’t celebrate it with my family. hahaha. I went to a youth camp or retreat or whatever you call it. Basta we call it youth encounter. *cheeeeersss!* it’s the besssttt part of my summer. Hahaha. It’s where I met……someone. haha. I became a better person there..i think? Haha. But I rebuilt friendships there. And had the chance to build new ones. I met all sorts of people. But I learned how to cope up with them. I met another family, a family that would accept me for who I am. I just hope that this family would last. In the name of God. Naaaks! Hahaha. I hope my relationship with them won’t change. They are the ones who made me happy this summer in the absence of my pearlshakes and ADN. I’ll miss them this school year. We’ll still see each other every weekends, but I’m not so sure that everybody will attend the prayer meetings and reunions. So I won’t see each one of them. Waah! Then after my y.e, I went to kuya kevin’s house in qc. I got close to my second cousins! I had a greaaaat time with them. They’re nearer to my age than my cousins that are nearer to my place. Haha! Ang laboo. Tama ba grammar nun? Hahaha. Oh well, we went to market market and fort and eastwood. Hahaha. I learned a lot from them. I wish na every year we get to bond. Haha. I love them. We’re ohana. Tama ba spelling? Hahaha. I think those were the only high parts of my summer. Most of the time nasa bahay lang ako watching smallville eh. Hahaha. Now, I’m sitting in front of my computer reading my comments in friendster. I got struck in jana’s question. She aks. “ready knb?” I ask myself. Ready na nga ba ako? Tomorrow, when I face my new teachers. And when they ask me “how was your summer?” what will I answer them? Nagging maganda ba talaga ang summer ko? =)

it's like summer everyday, when i'm with you.
stay with me so it will stay that way...

there's gotta be something for my soul somewhere.

2007-05-21T04:18:00.000Z

don't waste your time.

heyy guys. i'm super sorry ngayun lang nakapag post. dial-up na kasi kami eh. kakatamad. end of the month pa makakapag dsl ulit. hayyyy. =c

anywayys. wala naman maxadu nanyare. i just love it na i'm rebuilding my friendship with rich and kate again. i missed them. we were friends for more than half of my life tas nawalan ng connection. how sh*tty is that. good thing because of this y.e. thingyy things are FINALLY back to normal. hahaha. oh well, i know my section aredii! hahaha. tagum city. i thank God kasi hindi niya ko nihiwalay kila micha. awwwww. gusto ko hanggang matapus highschool ko inde na magbago friendship ko with them. AND OF COURSE, my pearlshakes. shempre forever na kami ng tropa kong yun noh. hahaha. hay. wala na ko masabi. i'll try my best to post everyday. hahaha. lots love. =)

you got that extraordinary way,
got to be next to you every single day.
you do some things that i just can't explain,
want to take that chance and tell you you're the one for me.....

another one.

2007-04-27T04:30:00.000Z

did history repeat itself?

i should sound happy but i'm here to post again about a guy who's making me feel special right now.

i don't know how to start again. hahahaha. all this time i've been posting about guys who make me feel special slash loved. hahaha. but every time i give my heart to them, they leave. hahahaha. i don't know if this guy will be any different. weeell. hahahahaha.

i had my youth encounter last april 13-15. hahaha. my birthday. great isn't it? hahahaha. most people call it youth camp. hahahaha. but i think you know the idea naman. hahahaha. i met new friends. (well usually when you go to stuff like this and you don't know anybody and you're stuck for 3 days and 2 nights, you have no choice but to make new friends.) actually i think this thingy was the best thing that ever happened to me this summer. hahahaha. i really really had fun. =) i found another replacement for my broken family. hahahaha. joking. =) but seriously, i really love them. hahahaha. kahit na hindi perfect at high class mga tao dun, they're real. hahahaha. walang pretentions. what you see is what you get. hindi kagaya sa mga places na super plastic lahat ng tao at pag naghihirap ka naman ay kalimutan na. hahahaha. anywaysss. so yun. i love spending time with them. before nga i hate going to prayer meetings with my parents kasi i thought it made no sense. pero now, i know na that these stuff are bridges to bring me closer to God. naaaaksss. does it sound like me? hahahaha. so yun, every saturday makikita ko na mga ka y.e. (youth encounter) ko dahil sa mga prayer meetinggsss. hahaha. well, about the GUY. hahahaha. let's call him pretzel. dun qxa nameet sa y.e. na yun. hahahaha. baka may makabasa pa neto ah? hahahaha. basta super caring and sweet niya. i just hope he's not like the other guys. hahahaha. i don't wanna be the "der heart i met a boy prepare to shatter" girl anymore...i wish? hahahaha. so till here guys. nitatamad pa kong mag post ng mahaba. please cooperate.

*thanks to janzy, my kamshi for being my INSPIRATION to post another blog. hahahahhaahaha.*

please say that you won't leave, 'cuz since the day you came
i've been GLAD.

chiiiiiiill.

2007-04-09T08:54:00.000Z

puertoooooooo.

kahit na ano pa ang iyong gusto, okay lang. basta magkabati tayo.

soooo. i'm suppose to blog about my puerto trip. hahahaha. it wasn't as ~~lovely~~ as i expected it to be. so yun.

DAY ONE.
pagkagising ko, nagcomputer muna ko. hahaha. then dumating na yung van, tas sumakay na ko. then nag punta kami puerto. boring boring boring. hahaha. then medyo nadisappoint ako when i saw the house where we will stay kasi it's not the house that we've been staying on during the past few years. lumiit, pero mas gumanda interior design niya. eh yung dati kasi, malaki. kaya kasyang kasya kami. so there. i took a stroll with my cousin papuntang pool. tas yun, di ako nagswimming. hahaha. i just took shots of the pool and the background. hahaha. then we went back to our house to have lunch. tas ayun. ako, si ate ches, ate ela and kuya miko stayed sa house. kasi super duper init pa. then we played my silent sanct sa cd player. hahaha. then gabi na, so nagswimming na kami. hahahaha. kaming 4 lang yung natira sa pool kasi nga gabi na. yung mga younger cousins namin pinabalik na sa house. then umahon na ko kasi ang lamig na. after we took our dinner, lumabas kaming 3 girls. tas naglakad lakad kami. humiwalay kami sa kanila, hahaha. ayun. we had our girl talk. then dumating na si kuya miko. nakakatawa talaga. naglakad lakad kami dun. tas nagtatakutan kami. hahahaha. then yun. bumalik na kami sa house. super duper lamig talaga ng hangin. pero mas malamig sa loob. hahaha. 2 aircon kasi nakabukas. tas yung isa nakatutok pa sa kama ko. kamusta naman yun. tas nung tulog na silang lahat, lumabas kami ni ate ela. tas yun, nag usap lang kami about life..and experiences. hahaha. i loved that moment. mga 1 na siguro kami bumalik. tas yun. natulog na kami. hahahaha.

DAY TWO. good friday.

ayun. late na ko nagising. hahaha. kaya pagkakain, nagcharge lang ako. tas yun. nag way of the cross kami. tas bumalik na kami sa house. lumusong pa sa tubig yung iba, ako lang ata yung indi. hahaha. tinatamad ako eh. and i realized na good friday. so dapat kahit papano magsacrifice. hahahaha. tas yun. nanood lang kami ng mga movies. forevermore chaka kung ako nalang sana. chus ko day. hahaha. kung kasama mo ba naman mga tita mong nanunood ng mga ganun eh, no? hahahaha. tas pag balik nila ate ela at ate cheska, naglakad lakad nanaman kami. tas nung dumating si kuya miko, nagpunta kami sa mga places na inde pa namin napupuntahan dati. hahaha. tas yun. bumalik na kami. ako ata pinaka late natulog, text lang ako ng text sa kama ko. hahaha. ang lamig kaya. hahahaha. then yun.

DAY THREE.

eto yung day na nagbeach ako. hahaha. last day na eh, wala na ko pake kahit umitim ako? wah. hahaha. ayun. aga aga namin ginising. good luck sakin, 4 hours lang ata tulog ko. T_T naghanap kami ng ibang beach naman. hahaha. tas nakakita kami. ayun. lumusong na kooo. at laassst. pero saglit lang, natakot ako sa dikya eh. =)) yun lang. nagbeach lang talaga ko ng araw na to. tas nawala ko goggles ni kuya miko. T_T pagka balik namin sa house, natulog kagad ako. hahahaha. tas nagising ako, wala pala sila. hahahaha.5 lang kami sa loob ng bahay. ako, ate ela, ate ches. at si tita minet at tita ces na nagmamagic sing. : hahaha, tas nagdinner na kami. eh since nakatulog kami nila ate ela, late na rin kami natulog. mga 2 3o. eh maaga ulit kami gigisingin kinabukasan kasi may mass. wah, last night na to. T_T pinicturan ko lahat ng dapat picturan. hahaha. ang ganda ng scene na yun. kasi lahat ng tao may ginagawa. si tito neal at tito mike nag chechess. sila anne, karen, lanz at jc nagtuturuan ng dama. yung mga tita namanmagic sing. tas sila ninong long umiinom ng wine. grabe, bat kaya kung kelan last night chaka kami nag enjoy talaga? tas yun, nung tulog na silang lahat, binanatan ni ate ches yung magic sing oh! hahahaha. kaya super laughtrip kaming 3 ni ate ela at ate ches. =)) ayun. hahaha. then yun. natulog na ko. hahaha. sila nagkkwentuhan pa.

DAY FOUR.

haaayyy. uuwi na kami.:c pagka mass namin, nag easter egg hunting kami. hahaha. nakakatuwa kaya, pinakyaw ni jc lahat. shempre with the help of his father. hahaha. kakatawa. =)) parang may panglibre na ng lunch si jc sa daming pera na napanalunan niya. hahaha. tas yun. sumakay na kami sa van. UWIAN NAAAA. T_T sayang, di kami tuloy sa farm nila kuya kev. T_T tas yun. nag sm dasma kami nila tita minet. naglunch kami sa max. then bumili ng shades at bagong glasses ko si mommy. hahaha. then umuwi na kami. :c

ayun lang. hahaha. see? i told you. it's not that exciting. but definately LOVABLE. <3

didn't i tell you, what i believe?
did somebody say that a love like that won't last?

continuation. :)

2007-04-08T07:45:00.000Z

eto na chapters 4 pataas. wuhoo, good luck naman sakin. =)

CHAPTER 4. picture city.

hayy. there, pagkalabas namin, umupo muna kami sa parang bahay kubo na may table sa harap ng house namin. we have to wait for 20 mins pa kasi so that our sunblock will work. (and thank God, it DID. =]) so there, nagpicture picture muna kami. hahaha. and then gab was badtrip kasi something bad happened. kaya yun, binuhos niya yung galit niya sa sand. nagdig siya ng super duper lalim. then nilibing niya yung slippers niya. eh tito edel asked us to play volleyball muna. so naiwan sa sand yung slippers ni gab. tas pag balik namin, nakalimutan na niya kung san niya nabaon! lmao. =)) then yun. nakaraan na ang 2o minutes. so nagswim na kami sa beach. =)

CHAPTER 5. i just wanna be on the beach. sunburn?

so yun. pagkalusong namin, nandiri kagad kami sa ilalim. kasi puro lumot na. T_T tas kinakabahan pa kami kasi baka may dikya. =)) tas may balsang. kala namin nung una malapit lang, eh since high tide na ang hirap puntahan. kaya yun fear factor kami! =)) grabe pa naman yung waves, super lakas na! eh umaambon pa. pero nilangoy parin namin yung balsang! wuhoo! saya namin nung nakarating kami. hahaha. then dumating na parents namin. nag swim sila. tas yun langoy langoy kaming lahat. =) then umahon na kami. kasi gabi na.

natulog kami.

CHAPTER 6. don't say goodbye.

ayun. pagkagising namin, kain kami then uwi na. dumerecho pa kami sa house ng cousins ni tita mimi to have lunch. tas yun. umuwi na kami.. :c

sorry

2007-04-04T13:28:00.000Z

sorry guys can't post today i'm in a hurry. sa monday na ko makakabalik ulit, galing puerto. i'll try to get ol pag dating sa next destination namin. love you all!

can't you feel the weight of my stare?

2007-04-03T08:48:00.000Z

ang dagat ayy kumakanta.

batangas triiip! =p

CHAPTER ONE. intro babyy! =)

okayy. i'm supposed to blog about the first out-of-town trip of mine this summer. hahaha. so there. night before saturday, it was soooooo hard for me to sleep because i was so excited. and i had this fight pa with my mom. aw. tough day. :( anyywayyyyys. when i woke up, ihad this bad bad headache. and i was about to tell my mom that i can't get out of my bed. but then i realized that this was gonna be my first trip this summer which involves beaches. hahahaha. so ayun. i woke up, and i hurriedly packed my baggage. and yes, i just packed my baggage for an overnight in batangas 30 mins before take off. hahaha. so there, we went to tita mimi's house and left the car there. kasi my father was too lazy to bring the car. : so nakisakay muna ko kila gab because we will meet chaii somewhere near the toll kaya dun ako lilipat. so yun. when we arrived sa gas station where we will meet chaii, nagpunta na ko sa van nila and brought all my stuff with me. i feel like i looked like an idiot. hahaha. dami ko dala, may dala pa kong gitara. haha. geek. anyywayy. so yun, pagka punta ko sa van nakita ko si te mars at si renz natutulog na nakadapa. =)) tas binaba ko gamit ko and nagpasama kayy gab puntahan si chaii sa treats, kasi nagpapaload siyya. tas yyun. pinuntahan namin siyya. then we head back to the van.

CHAPTER TWO. what a journey it has been. =)

when we got in the van, nag-usap kami ni chaii. usap. usap. usap. usap. hahaha. then she was unli na. people started texting me good morning. thank God, the trip on the way there won't be boring because of my textmates. cheers to micha, bianx, clariza, kuya kevin, iannix, abi, mika & alexa. err. i'm sorry if i forgot any name. just text me again so that i'll edit this and put your name. haha. jooyyyy. so there. we finished 3 cd's until we arrived. sugarfree's tala-arawan, spongecola's transit, and pupil's beautiful machines. but then beautiful machines was played thrice and transit was played thrice as well. the tala-arawan was only played twice. so yun. tawa lang kami ng tawa ni chaii on the way. tas shempre picture2. ayyun lang. then mga 30 mins before we arrive i took a nap. kasi nga i didn't have much sleep. so there. i woke up just as we arrived. i thought it was the same resort the last time i went to batangas. pero it was a different resort pala. so yun. bumaba na kami.

CHAPTER 3. feeling the environment. hell yea!!

pagkababa namin, i took my first shots of the beach. damn, it looks so peaceful. pero after 1 minute ata, dumami yung tao. muka nang kanal. hahaha. joke! ;p so yyun. we went inside the rooms to leave our stuff. then sat sa may sala. usap usap, picture picture. rarr. it's so freaking hot. then tita mimi asked us to have our snacks. she prepared hot dog tas egg. eh we were so hungry because none of us had real breakfast. kaya after one minute the food she prepared was goneeeee. hahaha. roflmao. ;p so yyun. she prepared for our lunch na. kasi none of us had plans to swim sa beach ng ganun ka init yung araw. except gab! hahaha. then tita mimi showed me and chaii how she prepares squid. hahaha. we were amazed! ganun pala yun ah, hahaha. after that texting sessions shempre. tas lunch na. tita mimi prepared her tong yang thing. extra spicy. chaka egg. hahaha. egg nalang ng egg! =p then after we ate pumasok kami ni chaii sa room para magitara. then gab and renz went in also. tas yun gitara lang. renz taught me how to play tuliro. hahaha. lupet! =p then yun. mga 4 hours siguro kami nagitara. then lumabas na kami.

waah. dito na muna. bukas promise chapter 5+. hahaha. baka mabore na kayyo eh. =p

buhay nga naman, tunay bang ganyan?
bumalik ka naman.....

-kaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

"the opposite of darkness is looove!"

2007-03-27T09:12:00.000Z

you don't know anything about her.

awww. i do miss them. hayy. the sleepover dayys..

but i gotta move on. sabi nga ni sir rene, loser attitude yyung nagddwell ka nalang sa mga "good old dayys.." dapat nagmomove on ka.

so there. i'm moooviingg onnn..

this dayy was nothing but boredom. hayy. kay lungkot. the moment na binuksan ko mga mata ko galing sa aking mahimbing na pagkakatulog. bored na kagad ako. anywayys. i watched dvd the whole day. pero nagcomputer rin ako para makapagpost. hahaha.

DVD's I WATCHED.

just my luck.

it was nice. hahaha. it's about a girl and a guyy. (sweet.) the girl was sooo lucky. as in. parang lahat ng bagay na hawakan niya nagiging lucky na rin. then yung guy naman, supperrrr unlucky! as in! lahat ng possible na bad thing nangyayari sa kanya! like madapa, makuryente! lahat naaaa. tas he was the manager of this band mcfly. tas they were asking him to find them a sponsor. on the other hand, lindsay lohan was planning a party and the sponsor na hinahabol ni Jake,(the guyyy.) ay pumunta sa party na yun. tas sumayaw si lindsay lohan at si jake. tas nagkiss sila. then nagswitch yung fortune nila. ayyuuun. sweet siya. kasi sa huli it didn't matter kung kanino mapunta yung luck. basta they have each other...awwww. <33

running with scissors.

di ko nagets yung story. wah. basta nandun din si evan rachel wood. yung girl sa thirteen. hahaha. yun yun eh.

the grudge:ju on.

napanood ko na to eh. pero yung jap. version. yung pinanood ko kanina si sarah michelle gellar. hindi ako masyado natuwa. or nasatisfy. hahaha.

twitches.

ganda siyya. it's about twins. yung isa, may gift of sight. tas yung isa naman knowledge. bata palang sila napaghiwalay na sila. tas yung may gift of sight dnadrawing na niya yung palace nila kahit hindi pa niya nakikita. tas yung isa naman nagsusulat na ng history about sa kingdom nila kahit na wala pa nagkkwento sa kanya. basta astig. kasi nung ending nagkagoosebumps ako. hahaha. luphettt.

sige sige. dito nalang. hahaha.

if i could find you now, things will get better.
we can leave this town and run FOREVER.
let your waves crash down on me and TAKE ME AWAY........

-kaiiiiiii

somedayy.......

2007-03-24T12:48:00.000Z

sleepless night. nyaha.

how did my birthday celebration go? hahaha. heto naaa. :p

THURSDAY.

wheww. it's my day today and everything will be alright. micha texted. "ch!ch, asan ka na?" waah. it's 9 3o am and i told them that i would fetch them at 10 am. okayy. i have to rush rush rush. but then, i was ~~tempted~~ to turn on my pc and ol to see if 1o1 is there......
okayy. i talked to pat and janzy. hahaha. i was enjoying so much. si utol rin pala, kachat ko. nag-usap kami ni kamshi about how our day would be. hahaha. tas si pat naman we were talking about his tshirt. hahaha. kung ano isusuot niya. adik! hahaha. tas kami naman ni nina, about how much i miss her. awww, utool. T_T gosh. i forgot, my time is running out. sabi ni pat ligo daw muna siya. (pero nagyym parin. labooo?) janzy said that she'll be here by 12. okay. i have to go to our meeting place already. i looked at my cp because it's charging. okay, chaii texted. she said that she and gar will be here in a minute. so i didn't have to rush pala. i waited for them. then we fetched micha, daniel, jesha&pat sa tapat ng seton. and shempre, while waiting, nagcharge kami! hahaha. rarr. i'll miss charge this summer. :c
then sakay kami trike pauwi. nakita pa namin si charmaine. hahaha. saya! then pagdating sa house, nagrest lang kami for 3 minutes. then dumating na si charmaine. okay, it's time for us to buy dvd's. yeaaa!
we bought 2 dvd's. tas 12 in one na. then we went back dito sa house. wuhoo. gutom na gutom na kamii.
then pagkadating dito, we ate ate bi's famous giniling. hahaha. they LOOOOVED it. hahaha. the twist is, while eating, we were watching SAW 3. hahaha! disgusting, right? hahaha. then janzy called.
kaiii:o, bat wala ka pa? kala ko ba twelve! T_T
janzypapunta na ko! wah. hahaha.
kaiiiiiokay, excited na si daniel.:X
(baba ng phone)
pagdating ni kamshi, tinapos lang namin saw. then naglaro kami ng patintero, ballintero. hahaha. kateam ko si par, janzy&jesha. (go black team!)pero narealize namin na sukdulan papala ng init. hahaha. balik kami dito, then nanood kaming not another teen movie. rarr. hahaha. tas labas ulit kami. yun ulit nilaro namin eh, pati agaw base! wuhoooo! galing galing ng black team! undisputed! hahaha. then pasok kami. nagcomputer yung iba, yung iba naman nanood ng date movie. hahaha. then labas ulit!! hahaha. dodge ball naman! hindi na namin kateam si janzy. pero si micha kateam na. galing ni ch!ch! hahahaha. idooool!
tas nagpalit palit kami ng team. black team parin magkakasama tas napahiwalay si pat. pero umulan. hahaha. ayaw ni papa God na mahiwalay siya. hahaha. nagmonopoly kami. pero saglit lang kasi pinagdinner na kami. usap2. about adn. hahaha. WE HATE SCREWWW. hahaha. tapos dumating na tatay ko. awww. ihahatid na si daniel at pat. hayy. girls nalang natira!

second part.

nung kami2 nalang, nag tord kami. hahaha. ayunn. private shempre. nagkaroon kami ng out of this world bonding. naasar nga ko sa kanya eh, nang iwan kasi sa ere. nakakainis lang, ang saya saya ko pa kasi nagpunta siya. tas aalis na nga siya mng iiwan pa sa ere.. disappointed lang. hayyy. T_T
tas ayun. pagkaalis ni charmi at jesha, nagorder kami ng yellow cab!
tas nagpunta na kami sa sala. inantay yung pizza then nanood ng movies! at 5 am na kami nakatulog.

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tas pagkagising namin naghanda na kami kasi pupunta kaming sm.
tas after namin mag get ready, dumating na si charmi at jesha.
then off we gooooo! :)
tas sa sm nanood lang kami ng TURISTAS. it was soooooo boring. nakakainis. T_T horror daw. hindi kayaaa.
ayuun. tapos nag wall climbing kami. then eat. then hatid kay chaiiii. tita yeye prepared fruit salad for us. then dun nila binigay yung gift nila sakin. puro puppies! tas may stuff toy na dog. pangalan niya 1o1/lemon. hahaha. kasi yellowish siya. tas 1o1 kasi para daw di ko namimiss masyado si 1o1. hahaha. i loooove it. :X then ayuuun. nag uwian na silang lahat...............................................

hayy. i'll always tresure those days. kahit 2 days lang. mahal na mahal ko sila. :D

1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1o1.
hay. pwede ba! ayoko maadik. :(( sana makahanap na ko ng iba this summer.

if we fall for each other, would it be unfair?
loving one another this wayy....

-kaiiiiii

i just need to miss you.

2007-03-20T03:24:00.000Z

napalapit sa taas sa panalangin na ika'y mapasaakin.

..and all i can do is stop myself from loving you.

eow to all. hahaha. i'm sorry i failed to update yesterday. hahaha. yung post ko na labeled as march 19 march 18 ko pa yun sinulat. so ayun. hahaha. i was just so lazy to post it. lazy meee. =)

so. yesterday was okay. hahaha. nung una, it sucked. hahaha. pagkagising ko, nakalimutan ni mommy na iwanan ako ng allowance. rarr. so i had to use my own savings to go to school. kasi submittion ng clearance. then before ako mag get ready, inaway pa ko ni pat. taena. hahaha. tapos! yung pants ko kasi na supposedly isusuot ko, nilabhan ng katulong namin! eh nasa cabinet nga eh, so malinis! bakit niya pa lalabhan? taena naman oh. her stupidity is intolerable. okay. i'm getting mean again. hahaha. anywaysss. there. so super bad trip talaga yung morning ko. then when i arrived sa school, i saw them. my ever beloved classmates. oh, how i missed them. me, bianx, chaii, mika and klars spent some time together. kami kami palang nung una. then dumating si charmi. and so on.........

then naging masaya na araw ko. i think it's because of them, lucky charm ko talaga sila. nagbati na kami ni pat. tas pinatawa ko nila charmi kaya nakalimutan ko yung t*nga naming maid. hahaha. then magpprac na sila micha, so umalis kami ni berry to have our lunch. we were accompanied by inna. and our adventure began............

hinatid kami ni sonja papuntang perps. hahaha. sa kfc kami nag eat. layo ng inabot no?! hahaha. grabe, tita pala ni inna may ari nung shell dun. so humingi muna siya ng pang finance. hahaha. she treated us for lunch. tas since pag dating namin sa KFC, madaming tao, we have decided na sa select nalang kami kakain. take out lang sa KFC then dadalhin nalang namin sa select. but unfortunately, napapila kami sa likod ng isang taong SUPER daming order. tas senior citizen siya. kaya ang dami dami pang inasikaso. ang tagal talaga naming nakapila dun! then the cashier was having a hard time explaining to her pa kung bakit naging ganon ang presyo ng binili niya! hahaha. grabe, mga 30 mins siguro kami nakatayo kaka antay lang sa kanya. besides the point na pag dating namin sa KFC super haba pa ng pila. and then, nung nakabili na kami, edi super excited na kami umupo. kangalay naman kasi eh. pag dating sa select, daming students! so walang place para umupo. nakatayo kami kumain. tas nakalimutan pa kami lagyan ng KFC ng spoon! kaya super dami ng fork! hirap! kaya share na kami ni bianx sa isang spoon. hahaha. grabe, weird talaga. then pagkalabas namin ng KFC, so pabalik na kami sa school. eh commute lang kami, so bumili kami ni bianx ng drinks. tas habang naglalakad kami, may parang taong grasa na humabol samin! shempre takbo kami ni bianx! hahaha. kakatakot kaya siya! may hawak pa siyang kadiri na thing, rugby ata yun. or food. EWAN! hahaha. takbo kami eh! sabi ba naman "painom nga!" hahahaha. grabe! nakakawindang talaga yun. then pag balik namin sa school, we talked about how we would celebrate my birthday. so napagplanuhan namin na sa thursday, as in this coming thursday na, magpupunta sila dito. yun na celebration namin ng birthday ko kasi sa april 13 wala ako, magyye ako. tas yung girls, overnight dito. then day after, sa friday. mall naman kami with adn. nood kaming 300. hahaha! saya! i'm so excited! =p sa saturday naman i'll go with my pearlshakes. oh how ilove them. hahaha. ayon. that was my day. boring naman today. pinag iisipan ko pa if punta ko sa school. hay. :c

p.s. naaadik pala ko sa linkin park ngayon.
yea right, old school pero astig mga lyrics nila.
pati tono.

with these non-stop lyrics of life giving,
not to be forgotten but still unforgiving.
but in the mean time there are those who wanna talk
this and that.
so i suppose if that it gets to a point
where feelings gotta get hurt,
and get dirty with the people spreading the dirt it goes........

-kaiiiiiiiiiii

teka lang......

2007-03-19T08:02:00.000Z

ADN.

it hurts to say goodbye.

mamimiss ko kayong lahat.

well, i guess this is the end. but i tell you guys, you've made my first year in highschool SPECIAL. :) grabe, alam niyo ba dati. i was SOOOOO SOOOOO frustrated dahil adn ako. honest. but now, i feel like i'm so so lucky na maging classmate niyo, even for one year lang. sobrang saya niyo kasama! maling mali yung tingin ng ibang sections sa adn, na puro aral lang. maling mali talaga! hahaha.i'll miss the laughtrips at mga kabaliwan. sige, special mention ko kayong lahat. =)

ADN KO

paul. hahaha. bubblegum, sana maayos niyo na ni pat yung away niyo. dami na kasi nadadamay eh. kahit hindi na mabalik yung dating kayo, basta sana wag na kayong magsiraan. =)

aaron. hahaha. white chowkiii. sorry sa mga nagawa ko sayo. salamat sa lahat ng laughtrip! =)

gil. hahaha. alam mo ang galing galing mo mag english. hahaha. sorry nga pala if ever man may nagawa ako sayo. =)

jasper. rarr. laki ng galit ko sayo! hahaha. joke lang. salamat nga pala sa walang hanggan mong ~~pang-aasar.~~ hahaha. minsan lang tinatarayan kita, para tumigil ka na. pero tawang tawa talaga ko sayo! hahaha.

islau. hahaha. salamat sa mga jokes mo! grabe, kakatawa ka talaga. chaka salamat sa pagiging mabait sakin. di katulad ni jasper! hmp. hahaha. joke. :)

mitch. uiii. wag ka na matorpe kay janzyy ah, mabait yun. baliw nga lang minsan. hahaha.

kevin. hay nako kevinny! hahaha. sa buong tropa niyo ata, sa inyong 2 ni gab ako pinaka maraming ipagpapathank you. sorry nga pala kung minsan inaaway kita. ikaw kasi nangunguna! >:p hahaha. salamat sa pagtatago ng mga sikreto ko, mapapagkatiwalaan ka talaga. thanks din sa pagtitiwala sakin, wag kang mag-alala. mawawala din yang mga probs mo. basta wag ka lang susuko. =) galing mo, talo mo na ata ako sa o2 eh! hahaha. minsan laban ulit tayo.

reyben. dadiiiii. hahaha. grabe, ang saya ng 4th qtr dahil sa inyo! hahaha. salamat sa mga audio's. astig ka talaga. sayang, barangay LS na kasi. =)) hahaha. basta dadie, dun sa gusto mo. mag-ingat ka lang ha, kasi looks can deceive. hindi sa sinisiraan ko siya. basta before ka magkagusto sa kahit sino, kilalanin mo munang mabuti. trust me. i know that feeling. =)

daniel. awww. good luck kay angel! hahaha. salamat sa mga fun moments, at salamat din sa pag sabi kay 1o1. hahaha. lupet eh, basta thanks sa lahat. lam mo na yun. =)

gelooo. taena ka. hahaha. joke lang. buko pandan, salamat sa stupidity mo. hahaha. joke! alam mo ang saya ng classroom dahil sayo. kakatawa ka kasi. lagi kang namumula! hahaha. "gelo is blushing!" hahaha. salamat sa laging pagpapasaya sakin. =)

patrick. haha. ayun. haha. basta thanks sa lahat. di ko alam kung ano sasabihin ko sayo eh, hahaha. pero dapat siguro sa lahat ng boys ng adn sayo ko pinaka maraming sasabihin. pero di ko alam kung ano. ah alam ko na. diba yung nakasulat dun sa ccf natin, yung sinulat mo kay chaii at inna. yung sa "you hurt my feelings when.." diba nakasulat dun "when you're not you.." ganon din dapat sinulat ko sa paper mo eh. you hurt my feelings when you're not you. hahaha. labo? :p

dan. snakeside? hahaha. i hate snakes. hahaha. pero di kita hate. =) salamat dahil ang galing mo! lahat ata ng bagay kaya mong gawin. idol talaga! congrats sa pagiging idol ng nakakarami sa adn. perpekto ka na kasi eh. =)) balang araw, mas magaling na ko sayo sa o2. pero pangarap lang yon. hahaha. basta galing mo! hahaha. salamat sa pagtulong sakin sa maraming bagay. =)

gaab. ayoon. hahaha. salamat nga pala sa lahat, grabe ang dami kong dapat ipagpathank you. pero in short, salamt sa pagiging anjan. at sa pagtatago ng mga sikreto ko. salamat sa mga jokes mo. aliw talaga. goodluck nalang kay.... ayun. alam mo na yun. hahaha.

ryan. talino mo, para kang si gil. sorry nga pala sa mga nagawa ko sayo, ah. =)

stephen. sorry dati. pero ang sama talaga nung ginawa mo. basta kakalimutan ko na yun. ingat. =)

girls naman. wuhhooo. kakapagod pala to.

micha. chich ko. grabe, sobrang dami. di ko na masusulat dito. basta gusto ko lang malaman mo na mahal na mahal kita. salamat. ikaw yung taong never kong pinagsisihan dahil nakilala ko. love you, chich.

tata. haha. la ko masabi eh. basta salamat sa lahat.

mika. cheesy! salamat talaga dahil lagi lagi mo nalang akongtinutulungan. grabe, hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko para balikan ka. love you so much cheesy!

chaii. miwkchowcissisychicochaiii. awww. love you. hahaha. ikaw pinaka matagal kong best friend dito, so wala pang naiimbentong word para idescribe feelings ko sayo. chaii, sorry sa nngyari. yung kay 1o1. sorry talaga. i love you so much, di kita pagpapalit kahit kanino.

sonja. mommy, sorry sa lahat. pero sana maintindihan mo rin kami. masasabi ko lang sayo, alam mo masaya ka naman kasama eh. may mga times nga lang na mejo umaalangan. but i love you, mommy. i hope you know that. and i'm thankful because God find a way for me to meet you. =)

jesha. cookies and cream, thanks kasi never mo ko iniwan sa ere! hahaha. i love you. because we both love black. and most of all, i love you kasi you're not kj. hahaha. thanks for all the fun moments. =)

marga. peanut butter! aww. never ko sigurong nasabi sayo ng personal, pero lagi lagi mo talaga ko napapasaya. thanks for always making me laugh. and accepting me as a friend. you're one of the persons na hinahangaan ko talaga sa mundong to. stay pretty! and ang galing mo talaga sa MATH. ikaw lang din kakilala kong naka 99 dun. hahaha. knowing sir miguel. hayyyyy. you're so smaarrtttt. =p

inna. strawberry, thanks for all the fun moments. it's nice kasi you listen to me. =)

lloyd. lola, sorry sa lahat ng mga bagay na nagawa ko sayo before. thanks kasi friends na tayo. =p

abby. hahaha. sinulat ko lang pangalan mo natawa na ko. hahaha. butterscotch ko. salamat kasi tuwang tuwa ka sakin. hahaha. salamat din sa lahat ng mga laughtrips natin. love you! =)

janzy. kamshi. 3 things. sorry, thank you and i love you. alam kong alam mo na ibig sabihin niyan. more years! :)

alec. double dutch ko. aww, if ever man di niyo na ko kaklase next year, araw araw ko paring sasabihin na hot ka. hahaha. i love you, ate alec. thanks for always making me smile. i'm always touched because of your compliments. i hope you won't change.=)

ida. mommy ida ko. thanks kasi ang galing mo magdrawing! idoooool. :p and thanks kasi hindi mo ko inaaway. =)

joanne. jojo koooo. awww. grabe, i love you talaga. i thank God kasi i met you. you're really one of my inspirations. you always save me. hahaha. and lagi mo rin ako pinapasaya. thanks kasi lagi mo kong naiisip. nakakatouch yon. awwww. love you talaga jojo. =)

celina. lychee kooo. wah. isa ka sa mga unang naka alam nung secret ko kay 1o1. hahaha. thanks for being quiet about it. ngayon alam na niya. :s nagbago na nga siya eh. oh well. i love you, lychee. i'm sorry kasi i didn't show you directly how much i care for you. =)

charmi. waaah. my miintt. you will always be my mint. hahaha. my humps. =p hahaha. thanks for being 36 24 36. hahahaha. thanks kasi lagi mo kong pinapatawa. thanks kasi i feel na safe ako pag kasama kita. thanks kasi pinagtatanggol mo ko kay ~~screw.~~ i love you mint! sobra. more bonding times this summer ah! =p

klars. mangooo. sorry kung lagi kita napagttripan. alam mo naman kasi na love na love kita, since grade 2 pa. salamat talaga kasi lagi kang anjan for me. =)

annlo. pancit canton! wah. natakot talaga ko sa sinabi mo about layered. hahaha. thanks kasi lagi kang natatawa sa mga jokes ko. kahit minsan corny. :s hahaha. love you talaga pancit canton. you'll be sexyy no matter what. wag kayo mag iwanan ni abby, astig friendship niyo. =)

bianx. berry! thanks for always standing by me. i love you! and i will miss you! berry! zip it! hahahaha. i'm so happy for you and your kuia. hahaha. =)

wuhoo. ang haba non. sana hindi kayo nabored. =p

adn, message for all. i'll miss all of you. SANA walang kalimutan ah? hahaha. keep in touch! =p

as i go, remember all the simple things you know.
my mind is just a grudge and i still hope that you will miss me when i'm gone.
this is the last song.....

somehow i knew that it would be this way.
somehow i knew that this would slowly fade.

-kaiiii

are you kidding me?

2007-03-13T09:50:00.000Z

currenty listening to : summer song by silent sanctuaryy.

sana ay wag nang matapos tong, pag-ibig na para lamang sa iyo. =)

field trip. and again. hahaha. nice. it's my third time this sy to post about "my field trip". haha. i remember, the first one was december 7, 2006. we went to biak-na-bato. that was a ~~very memorable~~ field trip for everyone. memorable in good terms and bad. hahaha. it's good for me because it was the first time i had the whole day with 101. hahaha. memoriess. bad daw for daniel kasi that was the day when my utol broke up with him. awwww. anyways, the second was when we had our tle expo. i was with 101 din the whole day. awww. hahaha. lahat naman ata ng field trip eh. ngayon lang hindi masyado. i dont know. pero he changed talaga. superr. kevinny, chichyy & janzy told me that he was afraid to lose our friendship. eh he's stupid naman pala eh! if he's thinking, he would know na masasayang LAHAT LAHAT ng friendship namin dahil sa mga iniisip niyang ewan. hayy. naglalagay lang siya ng lamat sa friendship namin by simply putting too much malice! rarr. hindi na nga ko nag iisip ng mga ganon ganon, kasi all i want him to do is to be my best friend. just like before. when everything we do together ay masaya. taena talaga. i hate the way that he is changing bit by bit. wooh. i feel that this field trip is incomplete because of him. haaayyy. enough about him. i hate snakes. he told me na kaya daw hindi kami magkasama dahil gusto niya dun sa mga snakes. eh duh! pati ba naman sa pg! taena niya. kainis talaga. kaya nung nasa pg na kami. he told janzy na mag eco-trail daw sila. iniwan namin siya. kasiii. nakakaasar na talaga. rarr. anyways. i'm dloading this song by linkin park. haha! pang bi yung tunog eh. actually it's old na. ngayon ko lang naalala. bagay pang rebel. wee! hahaha. it's called "one step closer". ay wait. meron pa pala. nung nasa bus na kami pauwi, eh nagkasugat ako. tas sabi niya "ay ako rin meron." ayuunn. wala lang, natripan ko lang isulat dito. kasi nga! parang counted lang yung mga times na nagkausap kami today! why, oh why. theeen. nung nasa school na kami, inaya niya ko mag volleyball. pero hindi ako yung una! arrr. ewan. mababaw siguro ako. pero hindi talaga ko sanay! grabe. T_T ayoko ring masanay. ayoko, AYOKO! hindi dahil crush ko siya. kundi dahil......wah. hindi ko alam reason. i just feel incomplete. i remember last wednesday. it was the day before they took their exams. ccf time. nagulat ako tinawag niya ko bigla. tas sabi ko, "oh, bakit?" tas sabi niya "wala lang hindi kasi ako sanay na hindi ikaw yung kausap ko..." seeee? iba talaga yung feeling pag wala siya. i remember time from the movie "guess who". ashton kutcher said something about being complete..parang. before, when he hasn't met the girl, okay lang sa kanya. he can live happily everyday. but when he met the girl, he felt na all his life, he was incomplete pala. until dumating yung "better half" niya. yung bubuo sa kanya. when she's gone, he just feels incomplete. hindi na siya buo... that's exactly what i feel. you know, everyday. siya lang nagpapasaya sayo..siya yung source of happiness mo. siya yung lagi mong kausap, siya yung pinagsasabihan mo ng mga happenings sa buhay mo. siya din naman. kunyari may bagong song siyang dnl, sayo niya kagad unang sasabihin. kahit new game pa yan. kahit na anong mangyari sa kanya, kahit gano ka non-sense. sasabihin niya sayo. tapos suddenly, wala na. i'm afraid..so afraid. na makita siya na iba na yung pinagssbihan niya..kinekwentuhan niya ng mga non sense na bagay. hindi ko ata kaya. i'll feel incomplete. lalo na, pag best friend mo. if ever man nababasa niya to ngayon, sana naman matamaan siya. kasi nasasaktan na talaga ko...sobra. hayy. nakakaiyak naman tongpost na to. masyadong abvious na last day na ng ADN tomorrow. haayyyy. i'll miss them. alam ko naman na magbabago na ang lahat next year. pero. wag naman ganito kaaga. ayoko pa masaktan ngayon. =(

it don't matter what the haters say as long as you're my boo.
no matter how hard it gets, our love will have no regrets.

-kaiiii

ang pag-alis.

2007-03-12T11:22:00.000Z

kung bukas, ako'y kalilimutan.

sana nama'y iyong di na maisipang, ako'y tawagan.

tomorrow's gonna be so much better than today. hahaha. it's going to be out field trip. prize namin for winning the modular landscape thingyy. hahaha. i'm sooooooo excited. hahaha. but i hope jasmin, emika and moalong can join us. it would be so much fun if the whole pearlshakes are coming. awww. anyways. i talked to nina pala sa phone kanina. hayyyy. grabe. i miss her so so much! she told me that she's so sorry because she can't hang out with us anymore. and i can't post the reasons. it's personal already. hahaha. i wish that she could hang out with us tomorrow. please, GOD. kahit tomorrow lang po. so many stories and news to tell nina. please please please. bakit kaya ganun? kung kelan super happy na ng tropa, dun naman mawawala si utool. =( i remember before, siya lagi tulay ng tropa. siya lagi nag aayos. siya kasi ate namin eh. but now, ayus na nga tropa. si ate naman wala. =(

my day my day my day.
awww, it's sooo nice. i think? hahaha. morning. i didn't care if the whole time before our assembly 101 didn't talk to me. i didn't even bother to greet him good morning. i greeted everybody but him. hahaha. joooyy. =) (mean me. =() first two periods namin = science. happiness! hahaha. we had this review. and while we were answering it, sir pj was playing songs from his laptop. yeyy! super astig ng mga songs. sir pj got them from my usb. yeyy! go sir! =) first song he played was i do. ang senti, mehn! hahaha. saya nga eh. =) then ayus naman yung day. nagreview game din kami sa ccf. same game like nung past 3 qtrs. coolness. loving life. tas election. i voted for white chowkiii shempre. hahaha. =) so there. my day. hahaha. my father is bugging me already so i gots to go. hahaha. love you all.

and i do, love you still. if you're asking do i love you this much.
i do.

-kaiiiii

tick tock tick tock.

2007-03-11T01:51:00.000Z

hinihiling bawat oras kapiling ka.

bawat oras na wala ka, parang mabigat na parusa.

it's sunday again. hahaha. tomorrow, it's the start nanaman. hahaha. but i'm gonna be happy na. kasi magbabalik na sila. but ~~not~~ because of him ah! hahaha. i've decided na best friend nalang talaga. i think it's better. hahaha. this summer is gonna be nice nice! =) hahaha. sa 30, outing agad with ichaii. hahaha. loving life. anyways. sc election na pala tomorrow. yea yea yea! hahaha. tapos we won pala sa modular landscape thingyy. so we're gonna have a field trip sa tuesday! *cheers!* happiness.

wait. field trip. memories. i don't know if this field trip is going to be different. the best mga past field trips ko this sy dahil kay 101. oh well. i just hope na maging the best rin to dahil sa kanya. PERO. as a best friend nalang. it's cooler. hahaha.

yesterday, buong araw nandito ako sa house. (just like today. yay.'sarcasm') i bought new dvd's. tapos buong hapon nanood ako. i watched this movie, "love wrecked". it's starring amanda bynes. kasi she's a smart girl. a fresh hs grad. she is having her summer with her best friend (Brian) on a carribean cruise. tapos her all-time favorite rockstar pala is there din. tapos they ~~thought~~ they got stuck in an island far far away from the resort. siya lang at yung rockstar yung andun. tas while she was walking around, she realized na nasa extension lang din pala sila nung resort. pero she kept it from the "rockstar" to spend more time with him. tas in the end yung best friend din niya nakatuluyan niya. hahaha. sweet yung story. i loooved it. hahaha.

meron pa kong isang movie na napanood, save the last dance 2. i remembered hilary duff's raise your voice when i saw stld2. kasi nasa school din sila. parang ganun din yung story. about finding your real dreams. hahaha. movie marathon talaga tong weekend na to. hahaha. sige guys, till here nalang. i'll post again tomorrow to update all of you sa nangyari. wheeeew. hahaha. lablab! =)

..and deep down i still do love you.

-kaiii

a vision of what used to be..

2007-03-08T11:57:00.000Z

this aint a scene.

it's an arms race.

my day my day my day. =)

it wasn't as sad as i thought it would be. i started my day with a prayer hahaha. after i wrote my previous post, i got ready na for school. the last song i heard sa radio is fob's latest release. i think? hahaha. super ganda niya. bili ako album nila. weee. =) pagdating ko sa school, charge agad. kasama nga si 101 eh. pero guess whatt. yoko na sa kanya. alam niyo ba yung feeling? yung akala mo nagfafall ka na...pero kahit na anong pilit mo, nakukunsyensya ka. best friend mo eh, sayang parin yung friendship. kailangan mo na magpaalam sa nararamdaman mo, kasi hindi naman dapat sa kanya yun eh. shemss. kaibigan mo siya. hahaha. and i don't care kung mabasa niya to. (tandaan mo yun, kevin.) kasi past is past. at ~~ayaw~~ ko na sa kanya. promise, hanggang friends nalang ulit. =) theennn. i realized, every time nagllie low kami ni 101, nagiging maayos kami ng pshakes ko. awww. so i decided na forever na kami mag lie low ni 1o1. para forever na kami maging ayos ng mga friends ko. =) so guys, till here na muna. i'm tired of posting ng sobra na eh. hahaha.

but each place i hide, only reminds me of you.

-kaii=)

and i'm about to see you go..................

2007-03-07T21:18:00.000Z

without him. them.

..the classroom would be half-empty.

i'm about to start my day without him. it's 5 21 in the morning and i didn't have enough sleep. hindi ko pa nasasabi sa kanya. will this be the end? tama ba naging decision ko na hindi nalang sabihin sa kanya? so many questions left unanswered. i don't know if i'm having ~~regrets.~~ but i hope..i just hope that i'd have the courage to make a difference today. i hope it's not too late...how would my day be like? ~~goodluck...~~

inayos ko ang iyong isipan ngunit di ka naman nakikinig. lahat ng bagay ay aking ginawa ngunit wala parin.
ilang beses ko bang sasabihin na wala nang kwenta ang nakaraan?
pero iyong pinipilit.

ikaw lang ang nais kong makasama, wala na kong gusto pang balikan.
kahit ako'y papiliin ikaw ay umasa gusto kang makapiling.

lagi nalang tayo nag-aaway, kahit walang dapat pag-awayan.
tuwing ika'y lumuluha ako'y nasasaktan pag nakikita kang ganyan.
sige na, tahan na. dahil mahal na mahal kita. ikaw lang kasi, maniwala ka.
kahit ako'y papiliin ikaw ay umasang gusto kang makapiling.

pero bakit ganyan tayo ay napaglalaruan.
siguro nga'y sadyang ganyan,ibibigay ko ang lahat.
pati na rin ang yong pangarap. sasamahan kita kahit saan. KAHIT SAAN.......

-kaiii

how do we end up, let me know.

2007-03-07T12:19:00.000Z

my mind is just a grudge and i still hope..

..that you will miss me when i'm gone.

how do i start this thing? ewan. para akong kotse ngayon. mawawalan na ng gasolina. rarr. this day. marks the end. hayyy. i don't even know how to go on tomorrow. when almost half of the seats would be empty. wala na saysay classes. =( ewan, it's not that i go to school because of them. it's just that. iba na talaga yung feeling. napamahal na ko ng sobra sobra sa kanila. sa kanya? hayyyyyyyyyy.................

before our morning assembly...

magkasama kami. nag away nga kami eh, hahaha. normal na yun. pero petty lang. nagpromise pa naman kami na hindi kami mag aaway buong araw. we're gonna enjoy our last day together. i think?
101:nagpagupit ka?
kaii:oo. hahaha.
101:=)(grabe..kilig talaga yang smile na yan..) so there. basta magkasama kami halos buong before assembly time. hahaha. i won't break through my whole day. hahaha. katamad eh. =) nung ccf time. ginawa nanaman niya yung *move* hahaha. grabeeee! kung pwede langgg. hinug ko na dapat siya nung moment na yun. he looks sooooo freaking cute doing *the move*. hahahaha. then i told him to stop doing that 'cuz it's bothering me already kasi alam naman niya na i usually fall for guys doing *the move* (but i didn't really want him to stop) hahaha. pero tinutuloy niya parinn! hahaha. ano kaya gusto niyang ipalabas? hmm. ewaan. hahaha. science time naman, nakatitig lang siya. grabeee. kala ko, malulusaw na ko. hahaha. i told him to stop kasi nakakailang. pero nakatitig parin siya. awww. those eyessss. <3>:c tas nag-away din kami. sabi ko kasi mamatay na siya. wuhoo. mean me. >:c sama ko talaga. kasi naman, bad trip sila gelo super tinetease nila kami. nakakailang kaya pag ganun, diba? taenaa. ang sama ko talaga. =( nagsorry ako, pero hindi niya ko kinausap. awww. umuwi na siya after, pero nagstay pa ko sa school. sayanngg. last time na sana yon, i wasted it pa. =( i was with the girls of pshakes when i stayed. awww. grabe, total bonding moment yon! hahaha. i missed them. moments like that(laughtrips, scary stories, kilig stories) come rarely nalang samin. minsan nalang talaga kami nakakapagbond. and i thank GOD for giving us that moment. i hope na sana magkaroon pa kami ng mga ganong bonding times together na mas madalas. awww. tapos umuwi na ko, ym shempre. nagbati kami dahil kay berry ianxx ko. aww. (love youu talaga, berry! everr.) hahaha. thanks to herr. sana magkasama pa kami kahit papano tomorrow. awww. =)

sige guys, till here muna. love youu all! =)

the stars are about to die, it all makes no sense.
i ~~can't~~ take the chance,
i don't want you to go.....

-kaiii. =)

ilang beses ko nang sinabi na wala kwenta ang nakaraan.

2007-03-06T11:22:00.000Z

"..ikaw gusto niya. pero hindi niya sinasabi
kasi magkaibigan kayo."

hayy. parating na ang huling araw. maitatago ko pa ba? ^^confused. :s

so. my tuesday. it went well. i think? hahaha. my morning wasn't good. my heart was crushed. hahaha. i know it's wrong to get ~~jealous.~~ kaya lang. ang masaklap dun, is that she is my bestfriend. ewan ko ba. siguro oa lang ako. wait. or does he do that in purpose? crapp. i'm dead. hahaha. kidding? :p nung una, cool lang eh. pero grabe naman. bakit sa harapan ko pa. it's so...~~not normal.~~

first period. "you're broken again" -101. at that point i'd like to scream sana. "hell yeaa! ano bang balak mo gawin sa buhay ko!?" pero eto yung conversation. kainisss. errr.

101:"you're broken again."
kaii:"okay."
101:"ano ba. inayos na nga kita kahapon eh."
kaii.(in my mindd..)"you just thought that you fixed me. pero hindeeee!"

basta. nagbati rin kami. ang sarap talaga ng feeling pag nagsosorry mga tao. hahaha. lalo na pag tumitingin sila direcho sa mga mata mo. (in short, 101. hahaha.)

math.....recesss....

computer. awwww. sobrang saya ng period na to. hahaha. binuhat niya ko. nawindang talaga ang lahat. hahaha. nagka goose bumps ata ako. hahaha. as in nagfreeze ako. yung kilig+kaba+goosebumps+shiver-ness=waaah! hahaha. grabe talaga! *the best ever* na nangyari buong araw ko. cheers...yay. hahaha.

tapos ayuuunn. nagpapic kami ng pshakes ko nung lunch. yeaaa. vain. hahaha. sige, dito nalang. papatayin na ko ng mga kagrupo ko dito sa AP project na to. huhu. T_T

and i don't wanna wake up, without you again.

-kaiii.

and i've been back.

2007-03-05T10:46:00.000Z

aww. it's been a long time. hahaha. waah. sorry guys, namiss ko kayo. pero grabe! dami dami na nangyari. hayy. lately i've been longing for weekdays already. every friday nag aantay na ko ng monday. hahaha. weird no? =p kasi naman, dapat itreasure ko na ang time. patapos na kasi tong sy, i'll surreeelllyyyy miss him. aww. for safety purposes, i will refer to him here as arcade. to avoid too much publicity chuchu na rin. hahaha. anyways. grabe, iba talaga siya. hahaha. ~~no one~~ ever cared for me like this. super alaga talaga. hahaha.

"and i miss you, kiss you. give you my coat when you are cold."

hahaha. anyways. too much about arcade.

aww. this quarter is killing me. after the intrams, saklap na. mean rumors about the batch are spreading. i don't actually know if totoo yun. but that could bring us down. tapos, sir peter and ms lhou got mad at us because of those issues nga. hayy. i hope na hindi na masyadong galit samin mga higher levels. aww. on the other hand, pahirap na ng pahirap lessons. and this quarter, yung lessons namin from first quarter ang itatake up namin sa exams. goodness. honestly, i forgot everything already. hahaha. kidding. i think? hahaha. i'll start studying na sa wednesday. thursday would be a suckky day for me. super. wala ng kwenta adn. =c saddneess. hayy. naiiyak ako twing naiisip ko yung stupid thursday na yun. so many things will happen. bad things. i just hope....hope...na though magiging masama yung thursday na yun, mapapasaya niya ulit ako..like what he always does. =) every bad day naman napapsaya niya eh. i just don't know kung hanggang sa thursday. hayyy.

sige sige, dito nalang. wish me luck tomorrow. hahaha.

one smile from you, makes my day feel alright.
i get so weak when you look at me, i get lost inside your eyes

-kaiii. :)

pinapatakas na kita mula nung unang stanza.

2007-02-13T08:31:00.000Z

para sayo.

hayy. alam niyo. sobrang twisted ng buhay ko ngayon. have you ever felt, na you were so wrong with a decision you made, pero you were so happy when you made that decision. hayy. ang hirap talaga, swear. anyways, valentines na nga pala bukas. it's also our teacher's day. i'm planning to buy roses for nina,janzy,emika&jasmin for being such great friends. so that they'll be reminded that they had received roses this valentines. i wish that it would make this valentines less suckier. hahaha. anyways. me and nina had a fight pala kahapon. hahaha. because of patrick. kainis kaya, inasar pa niya si nina kahapon. rarrr. buti nalang bati na kami ni nina ngayon, awww. missed her sooo much. what else can i say pba? hmm. eto nalang. sa lahat ng mga nakakabasa neto, gusto kong malaman niyo na hindi madaling kalimutan siya. at mas lalong mahirap sakin para sabihing hindi ko na siya mahal. pero hahayaan ko siya, kasi nga mahal ko siya. may iba na siyang mahal. let go of your love. but if he comes back, fight for him. if you're meant to be, no matter how many the twist and turns you might face,love will find it's way back to you. KUNG KAYO TALAGA. hayy. sige, hanggang dito nalang siguro. happy hearts day to everyone bukas. :)

-rogue:)

our worth has been tested. now and forevermore!

2007-01-27T12:20:00.000Z

27th of january, year 2007.

BRIGANTES HAVE CONQUERED.

wuhooo! kay saya! hindi man over all, champion naman sa cheering! oh yeah! haha! grabe. hindi talaga namin ineexpect. pero kwento ko sa inyo ang dalawang ara ng pinakamaikling intrams sa buong buhay ko. kay ikle ngunit kay saya. =p GO FRESHMEN!=p

day 1. opening. hay. parang walang gana lahat. kainis sobra. eh after pa naman ng opening na to ay cheer dance na. hay sosss. kulang sa energy. unlike yung mga opening ng intrams in my past years sa seton. cheerdance. second kaming magpeperform. sabi samin ng beloved kat&nat namin, wag daw kami manonood sa seniors kasi sila unang magpprform. so ayun, sunod kami shempre. haha. hbang ngpeperform sila, ngppraktis kami. ayun. grabe kabadong kabado talaga kami. in a few minutes or so matatapos na ang pinanggalingan ng pinaghirapan namin. ay shierrt. may cheering papala. anyways. hayuun. cheer dance. sayaw sayaw dance dance. haha kulet=p buti nalang di ako nagkamali. sophies na, kay ganda. =D juniors, dq. nag exceed sa time limit. after that nnood ako bball gurls. awwww. kay saklap. talo sila utol. tapos nood kami waterpolo. kay saya! galing ni islau! wuhoo mvp! =p kinabukasan ay lalaro ulit sila sa championship! go freshmeen! wala na ata akong ibang pinanood namatinong games. naglakadlakad lang kasi kami ni utol. buwahaahaha. tas praktis. grabeee. sabog kami. hindi pa finalized yung steps for cheering! kasi maxado ata kami nag focus sa cheerdance. huwow no. =( nat's order. 5 30 bukas.

day 2. pagdating praktis agad. ilang oras nalang ang nalalabi upang mapatunayan namin sa mga higher batch na may ibubuga ang aming batch. sabi nga nila, "main event ang cheering." once na manalo ka daw dun, okay na. hayy. hopeless kami. feeling namin kami pa magpapabagsak sa batch. kaya shempre go kami. praktis praktis dance dance sigaw jan sigaw don turo dito turo dun. umagang umaga pagod na kami. at ako? GUTOM NA GUTOOOM. waaah. kulang papala bfast ko. nanood naman akong bball firls for 3rd place. panalo kameee! go freshmeeen! =p tapos championship naman ng waterpolo! hayy. 2nd lang kami. =( by 1 point natalo kami ng seniors. oh life. after that direcho naman kami ulit sa gym championship ng bball. wuhooooo. kaya lng 2nd lng din kami. hayy. sadneess. after nun wala na ko ulit ibang pinanood. haha! nagprepare na kami for cheering. im so glad kasi dumating sila mang miko at mommy joyce. tas shempre andun din parents ko. shieert, sa harap daw ako ilalagay. wtf? panu kung magkamali ako? hollyyy cooww. goodluck saken. waaaah. cheering na. nanood kami. 4th kaming magppresent. awww. =( gusto ko first eh. galing ng lahat nglevel! kami na. grabe nabasa ako. haha! nabasa kasi yung grounds eh. aww. ayun. awarding na. nung una nawawalan na kami ng gana kasi talo kami. =)) then ayun. nung mga huling part na kami na ng kami tinatawag. most disciplined, most organized batch! amin yan! haha! si sir p naman nanalo din! wuhoo! go brigantes! yan na, announcing ng winners sa cheering. hindi ko na naisipan pang kabahan kasi nga hindi na ko nag eexpect. 4th place. crusaders. nanahimik ang lahat. juniors, sophies & freshmen. talunan! yes. hindi kami 4th. we were only aiming for third. yun lang talaga pinangarap ko. 3rd. alchemist. waaah! kay ingay ng paligid! tumataas ang tension ng kada estudyante at bisita pati mga magulang kinakabahan na! ang iaannounce yung champion. ang pangalang nabanggit. BRIGANTEEESSSSS!!! waaahh! grabe talaga tuwang tuwa kami! hindi ko lang maexpress dito pero soobrang tuwang tuwa kami! 2nd din kami sa cheerdance!! waaaah! record breaking batch to! sobrang saya kooo! we've made our teachers proud! and i'm soooo happy about that. =p go freshmen! brigantes have conquered, brigantes prevailed. feel the strength! brigantes prevailed! oh kay saya talaga! napakahusay! sulit lahat ng pagod pasa sugat namin! sana ganito ulit next year! go freshmen! sige dito nalang. may hang over pa ko sa pagkakasaya eh. haha! ingats. =p

brigantes brigantes briganteeeeeeeees.

it's you, i've been waiting for all of my life..

2007-01-20T12:08:00.000Z

intrams naaaa.

hay. hindi ko alam kung ano ang irereact. masaya ako, kasi mahal ko naman ang pagsasayaw. kasi pepsquad ako. pero ang malungkot dun, ito na ata pinaka maikling intrams sa buong buhay ko. hayyy. two days. inalis yung mga filipino games. inalis ren yung mga games na SANA may pag asa kaming manalo. hayyy. freshies vs. seniors/juniors/sophies. goodluck nalang. pero hopeful ako. oo. hopeful. tsssss. sana mga kabatch ko rin. hopeful. wuhoooo. grabee. since last week up to seven na stay naming mga cheerdancers. hayyy. sana nga okay lang yun kay bhie, kasi sobrang konting time nalang kami nkakapag usap. hayy. saturday ngayon right? pero kanina nagstay kami sa school from 8-5. nag prak lang kami. rarrr. ang galing ng 4th yir. pati 3rd yir. dq nman narinig 2nd yir. pero for sure maganda rin yung sa kanila. anywaayyyss. sorry nga pala kung ngayon lang ulit nkapagpost, pamatay naman kasi yung year end post ko. soobrang haba. monthsary pala namin kahapon.=) awww, love you bhie:) ang saya. kaya lang di kami nkalbas. rarrness. galing talaga ng kamikazee. haha wala lang. =p la na ko masabi. basta good luck nlang sa intrams. sana maging masaya naman. ito na ang last activity na maluphet ngayong hs eh. tumaas pala ko sa math. yeyyyyyyy! =p

-kaaiii=)

i feel the thrill from words we say...i love you

2007-01-06T09:56:00.000Z

mag iintrams naaa!

hayy. sobbraangg excited na ko. kahit na sobrang wala kaming pag asa mag over all, first intrams ko ata to in the hyskul dept! hayyy. cheerdancer pala ko, at ang masaklap dun, wala na kaming ibang games na pwedeng salihan. pero looking sa bright side, dapat maging masaya ako kasi sure na yung grade ko sa p.e. at hindi ako magiging utusan. haha! ayun, sooobrang sakit pala ng katawan ko. kasi first practice namin. at kung anu anong mga acrobats ang mga ipinagawa samin. graabee. eh wala naman akong history sa mga ganung kind ng sayaw. kaya kamusta naman, sakit ng katawan ang inabot ko. nagkapasa pa ko. waahhhhhh huhuhuhu. hayy. ganyan talaga ang buhay, anyweisss, goodluck pala sakin sa physics. pati sa math. pati sa english. kasi i think magiging deadly 'to this quarter. kasi kailngan kong ibalance ng mabute studies ko. kundiii. huwow no. haha!

"dalangin sana ngayon ay hinog na, love story nating hilaw na nag-umpisa, ngunit lahat ng ito'y palagay lang, sa ating isip ay naglalaro lamang."

^^aids ng kamikazee=D mag oone year na sakin maharot koo! may 26 'o6 ko to binilee! waaah. ilang months nalang! haha! sana by that time meron ng bagong album kkazee. haha!:) sigesige, dito nalang:D manatili sana tayong lahat na sumuporta sa band of the year na kamikazee. yeaaahhh ang harot. haha! =P

-kai!:)

in my imagination, anything goes :D

2006-12-31T02:34:00.000Z

hello there guyss. =D

hayy. tagal ko na hindi nagpopost. haha! tamad kasi. oh no. haha! nyweis. anu ba mga nangyri. ay ayun. kahapun nga pala nagcelebrate kami kasi beerday ni ch!chyy micha. ayun. nanood kami ng kkk. ang boring. kamusta naman iun. pinakain kami ni chich sa max. srap. sooobraa. ang takaw ni daniel. haha! loko lang. tapos iun nga. nanood kmi. bumili ako ng large popcorn. tas ayun. haha! di ko naubos. yeaaahhh. haha! di ko rin naman naubos yung iced tea ko. lasang tubig kasi. tas ayun ngttxt2 lang kami ni chaii sa loob ng cnehan. tas ang ingay nila jesh. haha! adik kasi, nakahigh siguro. huwow nooo. bumili ako ng mag kahapon. cover kasi KAMIKAZEE shempre it caught my attention diba? haha! tas sa mga stores na pinuntahan namin, WALA lahat ng album ng typecast at silent sanctuaryy. kamusta naman iun. sbi nung isang miss, sa tower records daw ako magpunta kc sila lang nagbebenta ng mga albums ng mga indie bands. HUWWAAATTT!!!? papapuntahin pa nila ko sa town kasi walang tower records sa sm!? manigas nga xa! tae, yun yung nagpabadtrip ng araw ko kahapon. tae. nasabi ko na bang may album na ko ng chicosci? yesssss naman. umaasenso na ko. tas nung fri. pinahiram ako ni renz ng five on the floor. adk ksi xa sa sandwch. haha! tas pnahiram ako ni te mars ng season 4 ng one tree hill. kaya lang 6 epsodes lang yun. raaarrrr. bitin ako. ayko na kay bruk. sama na niya kay luke. kainis, tcher pa nya yung gusto niya! kadiri ah! si peyton na ko. haha! may scary part kasi dun, as in mapapatili ka talaga! hooollyyyyy cooowww. haha! can't wait to watch the rest of the epsodes but for the mean time, WOOOSHHH. patapos na po itong taon na to! yes and no. malulungkot tlaga ko. kasi SOOBRAANG daming memries ng year na to, surely it's wayyyy wayy better than '05, for me=D kasi dami ko natutunan, about me, friends, love, MUSIC. haha! i've learned na people wont change for me so why will i change for them? haha! great great year. sana maging better nnaman tong 2007 na parating. sa lahat ng mga nasaktan ko sa nagdaanna taon, SOORRYY SORRYY po sa inyong lahat, sana matanggap nyo ko kasi eto ako. thank you sa pamilya, mga kaibigan, kay bhie:D kasi nnjan kayo for me. lang iwanan sa ere ah! :p kay utol, kamshi/sizzy, dudeparetsong, chong, ashteedorry/arfarf, siss'mk. salamat sa inyo, mahal ko kayo pearlshakes ko, salamat sa mga iyakan, laftrip at chibugan, wlang mkakapantay kayo, "iba talaga magmahal pag pearlshakes" dba? haha! kay miwkchowcisissy chaii, chichy vanilla, berry xianx, minty storm, mocha frap, strawberry, cheesy, pancit canton, buko pandan, bubblegum, mangosaii, peanubutter gar, whitechowci, butterscotch, doubledutch, daniel, lychee, cookies&cream, salamat sa inyo, kasi lagi nyo kong pinapasaya. dan at kevinny, salamat sa pagtulong sakin sa o2! lupet nyo! haha! mommy mox, big sis niah, sis eunice, mommy kryzzel, kri, tta bhey,jelatin, janatin, mommy raine, mahmie anna, jed, ian, reden, momma ness, tata miya, katz, sa lahat ng mga kabatch ko na laging anjan para sakin, alam nyo kung sino kayo sorry kung di ko kayo nalagay dito pero SOBRANG thank you at salamat:) kay kuya kevin at abi, sana kayo na forever, naging part kayo ng masayang year ko:) kay ate ches, ate ela, sa iba kong pinsan, thanks sa mga advice pag may probs:) mang miko at mommy joyce, goodluck sa course nyo, salamat sa pagtulong pag may assignment. sa mga globe users na kasamasa distribution list ko, salamat at sorry kasi lagi ko kayong inaabala pero thank you kasi pag bored ako lagi nyo kong tinetext. sa kamikazee, chicosci, silent sanctuary, itchyworms, urbandub, barbiealmablbis, michelle branch, mychem, patd, yellowcard at falloutboy, alam kong imposibleng binabasa nyo tong blog ko ngayon, pero salamat sa musika, inspirasyon ko kayo:D nice. kay bhie, mhal n mhal kita..sna lam m yun..:) sa pamilya ko, alam ko pasaway ako pero love ko kayo. kay GOD, thankyou at sorryy po sa lahat, waah, loveyou po:)

hayy. sorry at thankyou sa lahat ng mga dumungaw sa buhay ko this year, astig kayong lahat:) sana magjamming tayo hanggang sa taon kung kelan umuugod ugod na tayong lahat, kahit forever pa! yeah, loveyouu all................................

happy new year sa lahat!!!

sorry kung mejo napahaba, at mejo boring, pero thankyou narin kasi pnagchagaan nyo. yeaah. last post for 2o06! =p

nagmamahal, kaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiii:)

awaken this sleeping heart of mine

2006-12-28T04:34:00.000Z

eow sa lahat:)

panu qba simulan? haha. ayun. nung 25 naglibot libot kami. sa iba't ibang bahay. ayun. haha! la q msabi. bsta. masaya. hehe:P

tas nung 26, reunion sa mother's side. ayun. nagtown kami nila ate ches. haha! nanood kami ng matakot ka sa karma. bwiset. walang kwenta. haha!

tas kahapon, ayun. haha! wala kasi maxado nangyri. dito lang ako sa bahay. BOORREEDDD. may sakit si ate ches. =( gusto ko pa naman punta dun. anyweis. punta kami kina chaii bukas.party! yeyyy! excited na ko, walang hanggang pichure pichure nanaman too! tapos sobrang miss ko na yung mga yun, kasi hindi ako nkasama nung nag sm sila. rarrrr. sa 30 pala! sm kami ng mga kklase ko, blow out ni chichy micha:) nood daw kami shake rattle and roll. haha! gusto ko sana enteng. hahahahaha! =)) miss ko na kasi yun eh, dapat yun nalang pinanood namin nila ate chess. rarrrrarrr. ayun. la na mxado ngyyre. haha! sige dito nalang. boring na eh. haha! loveyouu all!:)

-kai!:)

the right to stay alive:)

2006-12-24T04:01:00.000Z

pasko naa! ang saya ng pasko ko, meron akong babyy eh. haha! loveyou all dito nalang tamad pa magpost. haha!

twink twink:)

2006-12-22T03:01:00.000Z

n.u. rock awards results:)

aww. sobrang sobrang saya ko talaga sa mga resulta.

it just shows na MADAMI talagang sumusuporta sa kamikazee.

~~hale ba?~~ wala panalo. no offensement:)

heto na po ang mga resulta:)

best new artist - up dharma down

drummer of the year- [that drummer from itchyworms sorry failed to get the name:(]

bassist of the year - myrene..[imago and sandwich]

guitarist of the year - mooonggg! [sandwich and chicosci:)]

voxx of the year - gabby of urbandub

best album packaging - sandwich [five on the floor]

best music vid - sandwich [sugod]

best producer - raymund marasigan and itchyworms [noontime show]

rising sum award - itchyworms

best live act - kamikazee

in the raw award - silent sanctuary

best male - mong from sandwich and chicosci

best female - armi of up dharma down

listener's choice - kamikazee

song of the year - narda by kamikazee

album of the year - noontime show - itchyworms

BAND OF THE YEAR[the most awaited award] - KAMIKAZEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

-awww. loving the results. till here guys! loveyou all:)

i'm not alone:)

2006-12-20T07:50:00.000Z

i'm soooo happyyy! :)

la na ko ibang hihilingin pa, kasi he made me whole:)

sorry guys, now words can explain what i feel:)

papalitan ko na pala address ko,

masaya na ko eh:)

wala na ko ibang hahanapin,

si ~~jiggly and mcflurry~~ ay wala na sa buhay ko.

keiii?

xa laang. :)

babyy.:)

-kaai!

my mind is just a grudge and i still hope, that you will miss me when i'm gonee:)

2006-12-18T05:43:00.000Z

heeey guyss. :)

haay. graabe. super naging puyat ako lately. kasi naman. super busy. pero masaya parin! weeeeeeeeeee! partyyy! <:-p

so nung saturday. :) pagkagising ko nagbalik na si mommy! hyeeyyy! galing kasi xa sa haus ni ninang. so nag sleep over sila dun. :) happy mommy:) tas ayun, ang nauwing gift ni mommy from their exchange gift ay two vcd's.:) the day after tomorrow chka little manhattan:) awwww. i soooo like to watch the day after tom. that time. kasi everybody had watched it already, haha! ang banu ko, ako nalang inde. haha! janzy said it was good, i was not frustrated naman after i watched it. kasi it's good nga naman. tapos after i watched it, kasi papi and mommy are sleeping, i received a call from tita minet, magready na daw kasi aalis na.:) weeeeee. reunioooon mheen! haha:) i'm so looking forward to this, kasi umuwi from the states sila uncle marvin and uncle albert. awww. last time i saw them was 3 years ago ata when we had a vaca. sa puerto. so ayun. i had lots of bonding time again with lanz and kuya kevin :) we were all wearing black! haha! kakatawa talaga. kasi kming 2 lng ni kuya kev. yung nag usap na magbblack, then it turned out na halos lahat kaming magpipinsan nakablack! kakatawa talaga, para kaming aattend ng burol. pero it was nice bonding with them:) umuwi na kami kasi brown parin kila te ches at wlang kasama ang kanyang mommy. then a ~~VERYY~~ shocking news came into our way, somebody texted ate ela tas nakalagay dun "patay na daw si jay ng kamikazee ah" .................................... nawindang ako. hindi ko alam ang irereact. sabi ni ate ela "kai ayus ka lang?" wala kong ibang nasabi kundi. "weh!" tapos tnext ko silang lahat, mga friends. tas sabi nila "d naman eh. wag ka maniwala jan." wheew. i felt relieved. hindi pa xa maaaring mamatay. haha! di pa kami nagkikita. sunday naman. kami naman ang walang kuryente. si yeng ang panalo sa pda. unang balitang bumulaga skin. haha! the day was sooo boring. kaya tulog lang ako the whole day. tapos pagkagising, masss. then punta sa xmas party ng frm:) sayaa! pero super kinakabhan ako, kasi nga may solo ako. so ayun. hindi ko pa napapagpractisan. pero dapat kumanta. waaah. may sipon at ubo pa ko. kaya dko mawari ang aking tinig. tapos tumugtog youth band. luppheeettt! may kanta silang ginawaa!!!!!! sobrang nakakarelate akoo! title??! "dota." naks. parang awiting ginawa para sa amin, ni.. hmm. quiet na ko. baka nagbabasa nanaman siya. haha! basta malupiting banda sila.

i'm sooo excited to go to ust this wednesday.

^^wanting to see their paskuhan. well anyways, see you there nalang! missyou adn! dito nalang, sana di kayo inantok:P

it's all because of you..

2006-12-15T02:43:00.000Z

wuhoo! tapos na qtrly exams.

tapos na school.

XMAS BREAK NAAA!

grabe ang saya! three months pa, tapos na freshie year koo. haay. yung past three days ng exams ay hindi naging madali. subraang hiraaap. waaah biruin mo pati mga kaklase ko nahirapan eh! kasi SOOOBRRAAANGGG hirap talaga. waaah. anyways, kahapon ay naging astig! haha! nung umaga nag punta dito sila jasmin at emika at janzy para makijam:) si jasmin at emka sumayaw. tas kami ni janzy tumugtog. kamusta naman!? pero yung kila jazz para sa xmas partyy nila yun. yung samin ni janzy? wala lang trip lang namin mag soundtrip kaligayahan na kasi namin yun. :D tas pag dating ng tanghali nagpunta kaming school. wala lang, namiss lang kasi namin school. haha!!!! tumingin kami sa sarisarili naming mga klasrum at unti unti ng nagdadatingan ang mga tao para sa malupit na party na parating. ito ang naghudyok samin para umuwi na at magready! haha! edi yun uwi kami kagad tapos nagbihis kami magkasama parin kami ni janzy tas si jazz at mk umuwi na sa kanikanilang bahay. :D sobrang bilis ng gnawa namin ni janzy na pag aayuss! kaya yun. sa sobrang pagmamadali namin pagdating sa skul narealize ko a ang dami ko plang nakalimutan na gifts. HETOOO NAA! pajama partyy! haha! lupeet. nagpajama party ang aming section. haha! tas videoke. tas nag antay kami nung catering service. tae talaga. 10 minutes before the dance sila dumating. bwiset. nirush tuloy namin nila daniel, jesha at janzy yung pagkain. tae naman. tas yun dance naaa! unang tumugtog alumni, tas myti band, tapos SANDWICH naaa!! waaaah! grabe naubos kagad enerhiya namin eh! haha! lupet ni raymond marasigan! pogi ni mongggg. waaaah. loving hiim. sana magmerge na sandwich at chisoci kasi dlwang gitarista naman ng chicosci sandwich ren eh. haha kakatawa sila janzy. kasi nagchecheer yung mga iba ng chicosci kasi nga nandun si mong. tas si janzy sabi nya "ang sama naman nila" without knowing na tiga chicosci ren yung 2 gitarista ng sandwch! haha! grabe talaga. tas dumating na si raymong m. tas nahawakan niya ko wuhoo! tas pinipilit ako nila daniel at janzy na umakyat sa stage napatingin tuloy si raymond m. waaah. tae sana i took the chance. :( tas after them straganoff then URBANDUBBBB! waaaah!!!!! astig talaga nila sobraa! ang lupit ni LHAAIII! hard bassist talagaaaaaaa. pogi gabby. wuhhhooo. astig ng urbanduuub! yeaaaahh! kaya nga kasama sila sa favorite bands ko. :D yeaaah. sigesige dito nalang. astig talaga yesterday! hanggang sa mulliiiiii! :)

-kai!:)

i used to think, i had the answers to everything.

2006-12-09T12:18:00.000Z

hello to all!:)

aww. feeling ko mas astig tong bago kong layout. inspired kasi.

kchat ko jigglypuff ko habang ginagawa ko to.

ayun. nagtutor ako. graabe! kay bilis talaga ng mga pangyayari.

sa monday. qtrly test na! tae yan. kailngan mataas grades ko this qtr.

grabe talaga. kailngan ko lng lampasan from monday - wed.

kasi sa thursday magpapakasaya na ko! promise yan! wala ng makaka-

pigil sakin. promise too. basta. sobrang xcited na ko sa xmas party

ng adn! awww. mamimiss ko tropa ko this xmas break:) pero

wala paring kalimutan. lahat kaya kami globE! unli unli unli! yeaah!

ayun. la na ko masabi. dito nalang. balitaan ko kayo bukas.

kasi magcchristmas shopping kami! haha! loveyou all!

-rogueeylicious:)

i aint promiscuous:)

2006-12-08T14:11:00.000Z

hello there!:) field trip kahapon! saya!:)

haay. grabe. sobrang saya ng trip. sobrang buong araw ko iniisip ko lang si mcflurry:) am i falling for him? or no? waaah! sobrang confused na koo. uko magsalita ng tapos.iba ata gusto niya eh. but one thing's for sure. HE CARES. sobrang inalagaan nya ko kahapon.:) sweetnesss.:) sobrang saya ng experience grabe! anyways, sarap kasama nila daniel, patrick, janzy, jesha, inna! sila lang kasama ko buong araw!:) sobrang laughtrip lng kami ng laughtrip! tas si patrick bugbog na ata sakin kasi ang wirdo ko pag ntatakot eh! shempre worried ako no! gusto ko pang mabuhaay!:) first stop over - shell sa nlex:) syaa! bumili akong kirei. kasi ang aga aga naubos na kagad namin ni janzy yung baon ko! :)) kamusta naman yun!? haha! tas pagdting namin dun sa site, trekking muna! saya! haba ng nilakad namin! kakatawa talaga! :)) feeling ko nawiwirdohan na sakin si patrick kasi muka talaga kong sira as in bangag ao habang ngttrekking kami! si daniel naman at janzy tawalang ng tawa!:)) sila ina at jesha, shempre chnicheer nila ko! then wading. haay. mejo nagreregret ako dito. kasi naman! si jiggly! taee. kung alam ko lang na xa na pala yung bumabasa sakin. i shudve hugged him. oh nooo. exagg. pero kahit na! kala ko kung sino lang, siya na pala! grabe! first interaction ko with him for this month personally:) sayang talaga. i shudve made the most of it. :( saya nung wading na yun. sobra sobra! bat cave ren. haha! laki ng kweba na yun. tas lunch break. kwentuhan..nakita ko si jiggly nakatingin sakin. at wala kong ibang ginawa kundi tumingin sa ibang path. stupid mee. nahihiya kasi ako. tas after that nag caving na kami. kakatwa yun! si iceman yung buddy koo.:) haha! "hawak kamay, di kita iiwan.." haha! kakatwa talaga si patrick. si janzy at daniel nag away.:( pero ngayon bati na sila:) ayuuun. tas after nung caving na sunod sunod wading ulit. nadapa at nadulas ako ng ilang beses! haha!loving water!:) hayyuuun. yun ang summary ng trip. basta! ang saya kahapon. kasi naramdaman ko. the three of them. they CARED. si blastoise ktxt ko umagang uaga plang. kaya nabrighten up day koo!:) ayun langg. :) kchat ko si jiggly at mcflurry kanina:) awwww. :) ktxt ko blastise ngayoon.:) now i can say that no matter what, I LOVE MY FRIENDS. kasi jan sila lagi. :)loveyou pearlshakes!:) dito nalang! i love yesterdayyy!!

i lovinglylove all of you!

nice ba bagong layout? it's true. it beats for all of you:)

-rogue!:)

ganyan ka ba talaga? bigla nalang naglalahoo.

2006-12-05T10:43:00.000Z

hello there guyyss. :)

ayy suuss. tagal ko ring hindi nagpost. well anyway,

wala namang maxadong nangyari,

besides the fact na NAPOSPONE yung

fieldtrip namin last weeeek!

dahil may bagyooo.

ooh noooo! haha!:) basta ayun.

nung wednesday na yun, katapusan na ng reporting namin sa filipino.

and guess what!

yung qtrly test namin sa filipino all about ibong adarna!

oh nooo. i suck at thaat. :(

goodluck nalang sakin.

umintindi ng mga malalalim na tagalog.

haaaay.

tas ayun. bumagyo kasi kaya napospone.

iriright side ko na nga tong post na to. baka mahilo pa kayo.

so ayun.natulog dito sila ate ches and ate ela from thursday night up to saturday morning. awww! total bonding memoir nanaman po yun. haha! at xempre nagpuyat nanaman kami. hindi naman yun maiiwasan diba? :) scary movie marathon nanaman kami. haha! missing those days. :( ayy wait! nung wednesday pala! it was sooo fun! last week, kasi after ng club, wala kasing mga second year so free time lang. tas maaga kaming dinismiss. tas nagsamasama kami, kami nila mochafrap daniel nina justin janzy chaii micha garr.. bsta dami! saya namin, laughtrip sobra! mga 1 hour mahigit din kami tawanan lang! tas sobrang saya, kasi..uhm..si mcflurryyyy. awww. heheehehhee. :) bastaa.

"liking you was never hard, i have fun with you, remember?"

tas nung saturday naman, nagparamdam si jigglypufff. grabee. superduper di ko na talaga alam kung sino na dapat magustuhan. perooo. im not sure if they like me back. sooo. why would i care kung apat apat pa yung crush kooo!? haha! basta im happy, and im kilig! haha!:)

"remember this, you will always be the first to look for in my heart"

at etoo pa! kahapon. dec 4 2006. siyay nagbalik. si blastoise. etoo. awit. haha! bagay sa kanya! adik na pala ko sa silent sanctuary. :)

Rebound

Silent Sanctuary

O kay bilis naman

Magsawa ng puso mo

Ganyan ka ba talaga

Bigla nalang naglalaho

Para bang walang nangyari

Di mo man lang sinabi

Sana'y hindi nalang pinilit pa

Wala ring patutungahan

Kahit sabihin ko pang

Mahal kita

Nalulungkot, nayayamot, nagmumukmok

Hindi ko pa yata kaya pang

Labanan ang damdamin ko

Nakakainis talaga

Nagmuhkha tuloy akong tanga

Pinaasa mo kasi

Puso ko ngayon tuloy lumuluha

Dahil iniwan mo kong mag-isa

Limang araw lang ay babay na

Sana'y hindi nalang pinilit pa

Wala ring patutungahan

Kahit sabihin ko pang

Mahal kita

Nalulungkot, nayayamot, nagmumukmok

Hindi ko pa yata kaya pang

Labanan ang damdamin ko

Rebound mo lang pala ako

dito nalang. bastaa. excited na ko sa field trip.

sa thursday. love ko kayong lahat na nagbabasa neto! :)

-rogue!;p

maghihintay akoo. kahit kaailaan.

2006-11-27T11:40:00.000Z

haay. tapos na aca week namin. sadlysad. =( pero ang masaya dun aayy. panalu pu kmi. sa dasayawit, math cheer, jazz up, uhh..yun lang ata? haha. basta im sooo soooo happyyy. kasi lahat ng pinaghandaan namin, napaghandaan naman talaga. haha. luko lang. laht ng pinaghirapan namin, worth it naman. lahat ng pasa, pawis, time. worth it po siyang lahat. i admit. sobrang naiiyak na ko last last week. kasi puro practices kami hnggang seven. kaya medyo nahihirapan na ko ibalance yung studies. tas sobrang pagod ko na at late na ko nakakauwi. dami ko pang pasa. subrang stressed ko naa. tas dami ko pang probs nung time na yun. pero i've learned. na wala talagang mangyayari if magcocomplain ka lang. i'm so happy nga sa sinabi ng mommy ko eeh. sabi niya. " yung section nyo, naiiba. kasi you don't wait for things to happen. you make things happen." nax nu? haha! pero for the other sections, sobrang ganda po ng competition. =] it was fuuun jamming with all of youu. =] sooo. enough bout dun sa aca week. =] nung sat pala. beerday ni daniel. nag sm kami. nanood kami ng wag kang lilingon. wala. boring. ewan ko ba. haha! nag lunch kami sa shakeys. tas nagstoryland kami.

" i never expected this to happen. falling for you was the last thing i ould ever imagine. i thought it was impossible. but it did. it happened. "

ayun. commercial lang. para yan kay mcflurry. bait niya. haha. bsta. d q aakalain. lahat ng pangyayari. haha! =o=*=o= sa school kanina. wala naman mxadong nangyri. nung dismissal. nakajam namin si sir paul. ang coooool niya talagaaa! haha! =p stiiig. tas nag kettle corn akoo. haha. nu pba? partner ko pala si janzy sa fil. at science. haha. yeah. argoon. kei. d kayo nakakrelate. sigesige. ditow nalang. =p sana di kayo mabore sa pagbabasa ng blog koo. at tag naman po, please? haha! loveyouall.

i lovinglyloveyou.

-rogue.

the night. belongs to us.

2006-11-22T11:22:00.000Z

waaah. hindi magtatagal at matatapos na ang aca weeeeeek. ooh hhinddeee. :((

oh no. haha. ayun. dasayawit at histomazing race namin kanina. :) 4th kami as of now sa histo. sa dasayawit? haha. deh ku lam. sana ayus naman yung results. haha! math cheer na namin bukas. yun nalang yung exciting. :( awwwww. pero gagalingan talaga namin tomorrow. :) ayun. sige dito nalang. wala pa ko makwento mxado for now.

"why can't i breathe, whenever i think about you?"

-falling for him. for the 20th time in my life.

-kai!

when you feel so tired but you can't sleep.

2006-11-20T11:50:00.000Z

wahh. pagud. pagud. at pagud pa ulit.

pero besides that, i'm happy with adn today. =) kahit na anung pagud pa aking nadama. basta ba, nakita ko na masaya kami kanina. chka. lahat gustong matuto. kaya ayun. haha. give, hindi madali lahat ng steps. pero unlike before na aayaw at instead na magpractice pa lalo ay nagiingay nalang, ngayon. nakita ko ang eagerness namin na magsucceed. :) ang saya pala magpracticesa harap ng ibang section. kasi ginagalingan naming lahat. :) awww. haha. bukas uli, practice. :) at bukaaas! simula na ng ginhawa! i'll make the most of it. kasi one week nga lang. haha! :) magiging masaya nanaman si kai kai kai! :) haha! :) ayun. dasal ko lang. na sana nga. makatulong ang linggong to. upang siya'y malimot na ng tuluyan. yees. makata = mee! :) hahaha. hayun. anu pa ba? siguro dito nalang. kitakits nalang bukas! gudluck sa lahat ng sections! astig ang competition pero sana walang masirang friendship! :) let's just put on a great i mean great great great performance and enjoy! :) let's not make our teachers disappointed in us and make them proudie proud proud. :) awww. love. :) para na po. hanggang dito nalang! :)

-hindi ko na malaman kung ano ang gusto mo-

-kai! :)

no way out.

2006-11-18T12:03:00.000Z

+.i,tried.to.resist.but.boy.i.cant.let.go.of.your.heavenly.love.and.no.matter.what.i.do.there's.just.no.way.out.in.this.
illusion.of.you.loving.me.back.AGAIN.+

hay. saya ng week na nakalipas. weee. haha. kasi. nakasurvive ako ng hinde siya nakakausap. wuhhhooo! one point for kai! :) sigesige. day by day tayo. ;p ayun. nung monday. ang weird nga eh. nung dissmissal. umupo kami nila micha at dani at janzyn sa gitna ng acacia lane! haha! pinagtitinginan kami ng mga tao dun. tas wala lang. kwentuhan, chibugan ng kettle coorn! yeahyeahyeah ;p tas nung tuesday naman. super excited namin nila jojo kasi kinabukasan mgsstay na kmi up to seven for prac tapos first two subjects namin [which is math]ay gagamitin para sa math cheer practices tas after recess ccf and tle na gnamit ren lhat for aca week preparations! haha! solid masaya to! tas nung eng time kinwentuhan kami ni sir paul bout sa muvie na the shining ang title. it ranked 7th of the most horrifying films daaw. haha. want to watch that super much. :) nung wed naman. ayun. the start of the busy days for us. ang lupit ng araw na to. ang saya. at super nakakapagod. tas nung fil time pa. nag amazing race kami. kaya takbuhan to the max. wee! lupit talaga tong wack wednesday na to. dabez! thursday comes, wednesday passes. haay. kay saya ng kahapon. kay sakit ng ngayon. SOOOBRAANG sakit ngkatawan koo! tae yan. tas pe pa namin. pinagpractical test kami ng gymnastix. naiimagine nyo ba yun. sakitsakit! tas nagstay pa kami ulti up to seven kasi prac ulit for aca week. whatta tiring day. :( friday naman. sakit ng "abs" ko. nax. nagfeeling ako. haha! pero dinga, sakit talaga. pero ayus lang. kasi masaya ren tong araw na to. esp nung prac na namin. kasi.. basta masaya. malupit steps namin eh! :) united na section ng utol ko! yey for herr! :) at ngayon. nanggaling ako kila mommy sonja. kasama xmpre si utol <3>

sige na, dito nalang. hanggang sa muli! -kai! :)

just stay away.

2006-11-12T02:52:00.000Z

hey guys!

eow eow sa inyo. haha! ang luphitin ng raw kagabi. kamusta naman. :) adik. ang astig talaga ni john cena. yeah yeah yeah! \m/ ayun. wala naman nangyayari sakin. nung fri. dito natulog si janzy. :) haha! super laftrip kami nung gabi. haha! ang lupet talaga. ultimate bonding experience nanaman to! :) tapos nung saturday, [kahapon] nagsm kami before pmunta kela micha. nnood kami ng "tXt". ayun. dko aakalaing nakakatakot siya. and in fairness. mas nakakatakot siya kesa sa sukob. pramis! :) haha! basta panoorin nyo. worth it siya. :) tapos after that. yung freaky thing na nangyari. nawala ko salamin ko. kamusta naman mehn?! haha! basta ang weird ng pangyayaring yon. tapos nagpunta kami kela micha. :) at syempre picture picture nanaman! wuhoo wuhoo wuhoo! :) basta. malupitin yung araw kahapon. :) ayun. wala nang iba pang nangyri eh. just have to survive today. may pasok na bukas. :( dito nalng. :)

-kai!

mahiwaga ka nga.

2006-11-10T07:50:00.000Z

haha. tamang tama talaga lesson namin sa english. yung story. yung wedding dance. haha.

"who will i choose? the one i love, or the one i'm supposed to love?"

haha. kakatawa nga eh. kasi. tinatanong ng teacher namin. kung anung iniisip namin sa society. kasi parang yung story, ppakawalan nung guy yung mahal niya kasi dapat niyang pakasalan yung hindi niya mahal. tapos ang lulupet ng mga reaction ng mga kaklase ko. may mga "society is unfair" . "society is a burden" haha. pero para sakin, simple lang yan. hindi burden ang society. baka naman, nagiisip ka lang agad ng masama, hindi mo pa nattry. sometimes, we tend to expect things. we pray for things thar we want. but what we don't know is that, maybe. what destiny will give us, is something even better than what we expect. sige guys. ill leave that thought hanging. hope it touched you as much as it touched me. :)

loveyou all! :)

-kai! :)

far across the distance and spaces between us :)

2006-11-03T07:51:00.000Z

eow guys ^^

hayy. ayun. mgttapos na sembreaK. :( that's the saddesst thing. hay.

" he got me. so fast. but then. he bid goodbye. so fast. TOO. "

ayun. d ako excited s first day. hay. sigurado. dami agad hw. waah. excited ako sa academic week! wuhoo! lalu n s math cheerng compe. :) kasi mgmumuka lang kaming ewan dun. haha loko lang. :) graabe. anuano kayam ga games sa aca. week.? wuhoo. nagpromise naman si sir leo na mageenjoy kami a ap contest eh. kaya pnatag ako. :P haha! at siempre. bago ang kaligayahan. meron munang pasakit. :(( bigayan na ng cards sa thurs! :(( grabe. feeling ko at sigurado ko na bumaba ako sa math. waaah. kasi naman. feel ko mgagalit nanaman si father. rarrrr. ayun. sana naman tumaas ako s ibng subj. haha! :) grbe.

"even if you took my heart, and tore it apart. i will love you still. FOREVER"

at para sakanya naman yan. haha! kay blastoise. haha! lhat nlng ng crushie ko pokemon ang code. kamusta namn yun? haha! ang weird netong sembreak. dko maintindhan ang pnhon. wee. yestrday. super hooot. now naman. naulan. haha! galing pla ku kela patric mocha frap khapun. kasi naman nag edit kami. ayun. d ako satisfied sa film. nagexpect ako mxado eh. ayun. bukas may shoot nanaman. at nnggaling dito si janzy sa haus. :) gnwa namin yung docu. at nanood ng thirteen. yeaaah. ang loser ng flash namin. noob kasi. haha! d kasi kami preho adik sa computerrr kagaya nila patric at aaron! haha! idol sila eh. sama mo narin si ichaaii! haha! ayun. galing galing nila. lalu na sa adobe. haha! sigesige.para na. bka antukin na kayo. wla nman mxadong nngyyre. bsta. SIYA PARIN. haha!

-kai!

and back. loving life.

2006-10-31T04:47:00.000Z

hey guys! i so missed updating! :(

ayun. haha. ayos naman buhay ko. sorry pala sa inyo ha. ang tgal ko ng hnd ngppost. ;'c ayun, haha!

*.. no matter what, i still manage to come back to him. no matter what i do to forget him, i still tend to think of him. i try to deny it, but he is still the one who owns my heart. *

hayy. kala ko nakalimutan ko na siya. pero HINDDEEE. hindi prin pala. konting txt niya lang, lhat ng pnapalit ko sakanya nabubura. waaa. ano bang gayuma meron siya? bakit ba ayaw niya kong pkawlan?! OHHH HHIINDDEEE!!

ayun. sembreak na nga pala namin. haha. mejo exciting sana tong sembreak na to if not for the bundok bundok na assaynments! waaaah! raarr. tomorrow pala, we're gonna go na sa cemetery. wuhoo! [[ cemetery drive - mychemromance ]] okay, may naisip nanaman akong kanta. haha! i've learned na sobrang astig pala talaga ang new found glory. aawwww. * thanks twin for the shared music. loveya soo much! * hehe. ayun. nagtesti pala siya sken. yan tuloy. ngustuhan ko na rin mga senti. haha! grabe. at syempre binigyan ko rin siya ng testi. haha! yung bago kong kinakaaliwan na song ngayon. [[ first love - utada hikaru ]] * thanks so much laijah and momie anna! slamat s astig na lovesong! :) * ganda kasi eh. :) pra tuloy gusto ko na magaral ng hapon. haha! :)) ayon. natutuwa na sakin yung mga pinsan ko. kasi tumugtog ako ng electric. ayun. muka daw akong adik. naglalaro ng barbie noon tapos electric na pinapaglaruan ngayon. kala ko nga maiiyak pa yung nanay ko eh. * you're growing up too fast baby * yeah right. haha. ( r we goin up, or just goin down? ) okay. kanta po yun, [[ sophomore slump or comeback of the year - falloutboy ]] haha. sigesige. balitaan ko nalang kayo. hnggang dito nalang! lavyaol! para na po...................

-kaaiii!

currently listening to : game of love [ carlos santana / michelle branch ]

and him again.

2006-10-17T12:05:00.000Z

hi guys! grabe. tgal ko inde nagpost. grr.

hay nako. sa wakas. tapos na ri qtrly exams namin! yey! [ i shall now celebrate! weeee! ] pero ang msklap dun. kktapos plang ng qt. dami na agad school works. arrg. bute pa nung frst qt. may linggo ng wika right after qt. week. how i wish day after tom. na yung aca. week. but sadly, that cant be. waa. tom. na nga pala reco. nmen. haha! accdng sa ibang sec. d mxadu enjoy. hay nako. wont let those comments stop me. im gonna gooo! yeaah! :)) haha! :)) nabangag ako. haha! :)) cge tong week na to. i can explain further. haha.

nung friday. waa. mejo may up's and downs tong araw na to. haha. downs muna. reco ng sds. grabe. how i missed my utol and dudeparetsong. cla nga lang ba? hmm. tapus dissmissal time nanood kami ng laro ng seton at sville. haha. kinarir naman namin ang pagchecheer! haha! wala lang pala ung larong yun. haha! tae. tapos after that nabore na kami. kaya nagcommute kami ni tomi! hm! first time to mga guys! haha! good thing nga hnd ako knbhan nung iniwn na ko ni tomi. haha! ang weird kasi nung driver prang amoy alak. yak.

saturday naman. woosh. napaka depressing ng araw na to. kainis talaga mehn! kasi sumama ako kila mommy sa pilgrimage thingy. para payagan akong pumunta sa ateneo kasi nandun KAMIKAZEE at CHICOSCI! grabe talaga. sobrang nbdtrip ako nung hnd na ko pnygan. hay nako. kaasar tlaga mga dude. sayang. opportunity ko pa naman to para mameet c abi at mkita c insan. hayy. pero nakabili ako ng superduper cute na slippers. haha! loove it! ;p

sunday. hay nako. at least naman nakabawi ako sa araw na to no. natuwa ako sa araw na to. i swear! haha! :) nung una mejo boring. kasi umiyak ako. haha :)) tapos nung tnghale naasar naman kasi sarado frio. pero pg dating ng hapun. hay nako! bawing bawi lhat ng mga depressions. haha! :)) dahil sknya. haha! :))

monday. this was yesterday. i was so excited talaga na umuwi na pra mkatxt ko na siya. :) tapos pagkauwi ko naman. ngtxt na pala xa! wee! :) haha! :)) ayun. mgkatxt kami hnggang mtulog na ko. hayyy. da bezz talaga. :X

hayy. ngayon. birthday ni dan! at xempre dapat may special mention xa dito kasi naman siya ng lelevel up sken dati sa o2 at siya idol ko dun no! haha! :)) cgecge dito nalang. sa susunod na ulit. mga tags guys ah. :) luvyah ol!

-kaii

i missed posting.

2006-09-25T11:25:00.000Z

hi guys. waa. i missed posting.

well, the week that had gone by was not really interesting, :) it was troublesome, yet exciting.

so.. cge.. try po nten iorganize :)

monday

- inamin qna kay sizzie na crushie ko c eitin. aun. nagimbal xa. :) haha :)) pro natural lng nman un. we were moving smooth but then pgdating ng dissmissal may ngyring d mganda. haha :) then that incident started may MARVELOUS week. not. haha :)

tuesday

- waa. ang loner ko. feeling ko wala akong kakampi. assembly. ako ung

pinagbubulungan. tae. iniicp ko, "dhel b dun? or dhil kay ......?" waa. first period. ngkabti kme ni sizzie. aw. i missed her. we hugged. i thought everything will again be normal. lunch tym. knausp ko c *t0ot* about dun nga sa prob nmen. it didn't turn out well. hihi :) dissmissal nnman. again, sa confrmation prac. ngawy nnman kme ni sizzie. shems.

wednesday

-present na c nina. [sa wkas pumasok ka na ren! waa! ang dmi nteng kylngan ausin!] aun, hnd din pla cla aus ni ...... :( kya un, wla preng naaus. tpus ngkabti ult kme ni sizzie. haha. pra na tong ilaw. on/off/on/off. sobrang npagud tlaga aku nun eh. pg dting uli ng hapon? nagaway nnman kme. shemaii talagaaa.

thursday

- whatta day so bright! :o pgkapsuk ko sa skul nakita ko cna ...... at .... na magksama. tae. feeling ko wla na ulit akong kakampi. [xmpre nnjan pren c tomi, justin at jasmin na never akong iniwan] recess tym. nagsorry c ...... :) huwaw. that started the twist. tpos pnag bti nila kme ni sizzie :) aww :) we missed one another. everybody! :) huuug! :) haha :)

friday

- everything's back to normal. haii. i thought never ng bblik ung dti. hay.

saturday

- confirmation day! :) ang saya! :) bumili akong bgong jansport! color pink and white na puro flowers! hyey! :) haha :) i bought confirmation gifts nren for ate ericka, cha at eric.. :)

sunday

- mejo puyat. 11 pm na natulog nung sat tpus 3 am ngcng ngaun. cnundo kc nmen c ninong sa airport. :) mejo fun at busy tong day na to eh. pag kauwi d2 sa haus, nag breakfst mna xa den church, moa! :) at nglunch nman kme sa podium! :) astig no? :)

cge guys! para na po! d2 nlang! :) whatta week no? :) cge post nlang ult ako.. :) just keep the tags rolling! :)

^^why will i try to fit it when i am born to stand out?

iacee18

not.perfect.but.real18

and he's everywhere

2006-09-17T11:11:00.000Z

wahh. tae. nrealize ko n hnd ko pla xa kyang klimutn. hnd ko alam. hnd ko ineexpect na mhihirpan akong mkalimot this time :( tae tlaga. kung keln ung kklimutn ko ay hnd ko lging nkkta, dun p nging ms mhirap! tae. ang wirdo ko tlagang nilalang. dba NORMALLY ms mdali pngang klimutn ung mga dmo lging nkkta? ewaaaaan! pti ako hnd ko na maintindhan srili ko eh. cguro, kc, iba xa. xa ung unang guy na gmwa nun sken. as in. nbgla tlaga ku. at nung moment n gnwa nya ung kswitan n un. tae. tnamaan aku. and to think na hnd pnga kme mxadung mgkaklala. grabe. pro as usual. bwal nnman. kc. mhal n mhal xa ng ktropa ku. dq nga aakalain n mgkkgs2 aku dun eh. haii. ang wirdo tlaga ng buhay ko. iba eh. twing naiicp ko xa nppsmile ako. wuhoo. ang drama. corney. at kakaiba tong kai na ngttyp neto ngaun. inspired? woosh! ;p haha ;p cgecge. d2 nlang. kkaadk stars. ng calla lily. haha ;p bka antukin p kau pg hnabaan ku to. hnggang s muli! ;p luvyah guyss!

iacee18
in.love.with.the.stars

ang pborito kong knta.. wututu..

2006-09-16T12:38:00.000Z

open ur eyes once again. luk at me crying.

2006-09-16T12:08:00.000Z

whatta! para na kong nagkakarate arw arw. putek. pra akong nkikipgbkbkan s mga kung cnu cnung nlalang n tnitira ung puso ko. nax ang lalim. ang drama. prang d aku. pro un cguro ung rason ng pggwa ko ng blog n to. kc mnsan kkpgud dn mgng aku. kya for a change nman. pkita ku ung "kai" n hnd kau snay mkta. aun. kya ku nman nsbi ung krate thng. kc evryday nssktan nlang aku lgi eh. NOT ONLY physically pro emotionally nren. at ung utak ko. tae. brain drain n ata. luzerr. hayy. whatta life. hnd ko lng kylngan problemahin ang pmilya ko. pti tropa ko. huwaaaat??!?! miss ku n ung dting kme. ung mga frst day. aw, memries. pro luzer attitude dw un sbi ng adviser nmen. ung memries nlang ng memries ung tnitgnan. tae ang luzerr ko pla. wuhoo! parrty! ;p ang hirap. tae. complain nlang aku ng complain. ang luzerr ko tlaga. well, mya aftr ng PRAYER MEETING ng mga mgulang ko mgmmocha blends kme. wuhoo! ;p at laassst! mkkalbas nren aku ng bhay na to. s buong arw n to dpa ko nkklbas. tae. bkt kya gnun? s buong bhay nmen ung kwrto ku lng pnka mainit. kmusta nman yon!? whaattaaa! extra strong! wuhoo! ;p cge d2 nlang. ung k2long nmen. kktayin n ata ako neto. kpg hnd p ko kmain. hnggang s muli akng mga tgasubaybay. haha ;p ngjoke aku. sna d kau mgswa sundan ang weird kong buhay.

iacee18
kaaiii18

spexal mention pla. beerday ni insan khapun slubungin po ntin s adriel o mendoza ng mligayang bati. adk.

moving on.. again.

2006-09-16T07:02:00.000Z

hey guys its me, wla n ung isa qng blog. nkalimutn qna pw q dun.

so im here to give u an upd8 about whts been happening to me lately.

academically, im ok. i think. im not the best but im not flunking either. i guess im just ok. JUST ok. i think its better than actually failing right? but i remember once, my father told me that im not like everybody else. right. ;p and he often tells me that you don't have to compare yourself to others. ull just end up being disappointed. and hes right.i just have to compete with myself. im this life ;p

well, s tropa q, i think were fine? i dont even knoe whats happening to us. i think all of this is just a big misunderstanding. we dont hang out together. we dont look like a "tropa" anymore. watak watak.. thats it. but everybody wants things to work out. but HOW?

love life? this sounds too boring for me already. since the start of classes, lgi nlang ang theme ng buhay ko is "moving on".. i think that phrase sounds too cheap already. why moving on? kc lging bwal. i wont expound on that already. kc its nothing serious. really.

cge guys. s ssunod nlang po ult. ;p bka mbore n kau s pgbbsa eh ;p luv yu al! ;p bsta tag nlng po ng tag ;p slamat uli! ;p

iacee18
pinkmixeswithblack

2006-09-13T10:16:00.000Z

hey guys eto npo bgo qng blog.. xowi mjo pnget pa.. pro pramis ku pgndhin q rn to lyk b4.. so.. ingatx po kauu!!

iacee18
preppysingsrock