i'm fighting urges to fall again.
..yet i stumble.
darn. feel ko mag emote ngayon. bear with me. today has been a really bad day. and i'm still expecting a "twist of the day", which would get me through the day like before. mondays always suck at first, but it never fails to give me a reason to smile before i sleep. so i hope that there would be a fun twist today, to strengthen me for tomorrow naman.
why does today suck? kasi i saw him. my new crush. pero may kasamang girl. and as i've heard, may crush etong girl kay new crush. at heartthrob pa tong girl. so ouch diba? ampppp. saklap talaga. at ang pinaka masakit pa dun, wala naman akong karapatang magselos diba? peste. di ko alam kung bat ako nakakaramdam ng ganto. eh ni hindi ko naman siya kakilala personally. i mean, yes i see him everyday. (btw i get so excited everyday to see him! :]) pero di nga ata niya alam na nag eexist ako eh. pero bat ako super affected, super hurt? BAKIIITTTT. naloloka na ko. swear.
namimiss ko na si best friend. sana nag aadvice siya sakin ngayon. bat kung kelan kailangang kailangang kailangan ko na siya, dun siya mawawala? bat kung kelan handa na kong tratuhin siya ng patas, dun siya maggive up sakin? haaaaaaaaaaay.
anyways, back to my new crush.
yun lang. di ko kasi siya ganun ka kilala. pero ang sakit talaga, sobra.
it hurts, having to lose someone even before you get him.