gusto kong tumalon tumalon sa saya dahil ikaw ang kapiling!=)
ayoko nang tumalon, basang basa na ang paligid, baka madulas pa ko. =(
i hate this. miss na miss ko na talaga ang summer. when everything was so easy. there may be some problems but at least kasama ko siya. at least i could share my burdens with him. nakakalungkot, nagguilty talaga ako. i slept at 9 pm last night. sadly, nagising ako ng 11 pm. patapos na ang pbb. i was anxious, kala ko something bad happened. so i called my parents right away, and thank God nasa meeting lang sila. when they arrived, natulog sila kagad. it was hard for me to sleep kasi nga nakatulog na ko earlier. so i was stuck with myx. there's this new band. i've never heard of them. they were the guest sa myx bandarito. so they performed. the title of the song is "realize". i wasn't conscious of the lyrics at first, but the tune was catchy. then ininterview na sila ni iya. the band's name is empty siren blvd. mejo inaantok na ko nung time na yun, so i was about to turn off the tv when iya asked for the meaning of the song. tas biglang sabi nung gitarista nila, "yung ibang babae kasi, manhid." ouch. bigla akong nagising. then i remembered him again. i remembered how mean i was. sabi rin nung vocalist nila regarding the song, "kasi kadalasan sa isang relasyon hindi nagkakaintindihan. tapos bigla nalang nag aaway. pero sa totoo lang, pag inintindi mo siya, maiintindihan ka rin naman niya eh.." shoot. 3 points. yun 'yon eh. yun siguro ang naging problema namin. i was too busy to understand him. i was too busy to be sensitive enough for his feelings. it was so hard for me to sleep after that. gusto ko sana siya itext para magsorry, pero naisip ko, pano pag sinumbatan pa niya ko lalo? edi lalo lang ako makukunxenxa? but i think that's the solution. i have to accept the consequences. kahit na ano pang masasakit na salita ang marinig ko. but now isn't the right time. hindi pa ko ready..but i hope there's a possibility na maging friends kami ulit. pero please, hanggang dun nalang. nakakahiya naman, ang gaga ko sa kanya eh. sana man lang mapatawad niya tong gagang to. haay.
but this time it's different, i don't even feel the distance,
i'm not missing, i'm not missing you..