currenty listening to : summer song by silent sanctuaryy.
sana ay wag nang matapos tong, pag-ibig na para lamang sa iyo. =)
field trip. and again. hahaha. nice. it's my third time this sy to post about "my field trip". haha. i remember, the first one was december 7, 2006. we went to biak-na-bato. that was a very memorable field trip for everyone. memorable in good terms and bad. hahaha. it's good for me because it was the first time i had the whole day with 101. hahaha. memoriess. bad daw for daniel kasi that was the day when my utol broke up with him. awwww. anyways, the second was when we had our tle expo. i was with 101 din the whole day. awww. hahaha. lahat naman ata ng field trip eh. ngayon lang hindi masyado. i dont know. pero he changed talaga. superr. kevinny, chichyy & janzy told me that he was afraid to lose our friendship. eh he's stupid naman pala eh! if he's thinking, he would know na masasayang LAHAT LAHAT ng friendship namin dahil sa mga iniisip niyang ewan. hayy. naglalagay lang siya ng lamat sa friendship namin by simply putting too much malice! rarr. hindi na nga ko nag iisip ng mga ganon ganon, kasi all i want him to do is to be my best friend. just like before. when everything we do together ay masaya. taena talaga. i hate the way that he is changing bit by bit. wooh. i feel that this field trip is incomplete because of him. haaayyy. enough about him. i hate snakes. he told me na kaya daw hindi kami magkasama dahil gusto niya dun sa mga snakes. eh duh! pati ba naman sa pg! taena niya. kainis talaga. kaya nung nasa pg na kami. he told janzy na mag eco-trail daw sila. iniwan namin siya. kasiii. nakakaasar na talaga. rarr. anyways. i'm dloading this song by linkin park. haha! pang bi yung tunog eh. actually it's old na. ngayon ko lang naalala. bagay pang rebel. wee! hahaha. it's called "one step closer". ay wait. meron pa pala. nung nasa bus na kami pauwi, eh nagkasugat ako. tas sabi niya "ay ako rin meron." ayuunn. wala lang, natripan ko lang isulat dito. kasi nga! parang counted lang yung mga times na nagkausap kami today! why, oh why. theeen. nung nasa school na kami, inaya niya ko mag volleyball. pero hindi ako yung una! arrr. ewan. mababaw siguro ako. pero hindi talaga ko sanay! grabe. T_T ayoko ring masanay. ayoko, AYOKO! hindi dahil crush ko siya. kundi dahil......wah. hindi ko alam reason. i just feel incomplete. i remember last wednesday. it was the day before they took their exams. ccf time. nagulat ako tinawag niya ko bigla. tas sabi ko, "oh, bakit?" tas sabi niya "wala lang hindi kasi ako sanay na hindi ikaw yung kausap ko..." seeee? iba talaga yung feeling pag wala siya. i remember time from the movie "guess who". ashton kutcher said something about being complete..parang. before, when he hasn't met the girl, okay lang sa kanya. he can live happily everyday. but when he met the girl, he felt na all his life, he was incomplete pala. until dumating yung "better half" niya. yung bubuo sa kanya. when she's gone, he just feels incomplete. hindi na siya buo... that's exactly what i feel. you know, everyday. siya lang nagpapasaya sayo..siya yung source of happiness mo. siya yung lagi mong kausap, siya yung pinagsasabihan mo ng mga happenings sa buhay mo. siya din naman. kunyari may bagong song siyang dnl, sayo niya kagad unang sasabihin. kahit new game pa yan. kahit na anong mangyari sa kanya, kahit gano ka non-sense. sasabihin niya sayo. tapos suddenly, wala na. i'm afraid..so afraid. na makita siya na iba na yung pinagssbihan niya..kinekwentuhan niya ng mga non sense na bagay. hindi ko ata kaya. i'll feel incomplete. lalo na, pag best friend mo. if ever man nababasa niya to ngayon, sana naman matamaan siya. kasi nasasaktan na talaga ko...sobra. hayy. nakakaiyak naman tongpost na to. masyadong abvious na last day na ng ADN tomorrow. haayyyy. i'll miss them. alam ko naman na magbabago na ang lahat next year. pero. wag naman ganito kaaga. ayoko pa masaktan ngayon. =(
it don't matter what the haters say as long as you're my boo.
no matter how hard it gets, our love will have no regrets.
-kaiiii